so why does your pride make you run and hide are you that afraid of me? but i know its a lie what you're keepin inside, this is not how you wanted to be... baby i will wait for you, coz i dont know what else i can do, dont tell me i ran out of time if it takes the rest of my life... baby i will wait for you if you think i'm fine it just ain't true, really need you in my life, no matter what i have to do...i'll wait for you..




*latest news*

"i am sick and tired of crying all day and all night that's why my mind said that i have to move on, but my heart tells me that i should stay and hold on... it's when i dream of you every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in my eyes...

most of all, it's when no matter how i try to forget you, i just really can't because of the fact that I REALLY LOVE YOU...
i miss you so much
and you're my one and only one MYANGEL!"


and

"i hate standing at the front of my mirror.. 'coz everytime i do i always see a girl cryin' askin' me what happened and where does that unselfish love go..i don't know what to say 'coz i'm also hurtin' when i see her with that swollen eyes, she is so lost, lonely and all alone... i want to help her,but i just don't know how...i love this girl so much... and i also know who can bring her smile back...but i don't know how and where to reach him... that's her ANGEL "
*crime scene*

Crime: loving an IMMORTAL
Criminal: Averyll Joyce Valdenarro
a.k.a: former pinkmagic and prettypink
now silentscreamer ~ brokenwings
Birthday: April 12, 1987
Age: 20
Zodiac sign: Aries
Location: Singalong Malate, Manila Philippines
School: St. Paul University Manila
Course: Bachelor of Science in Computer Science
Occupation: a graduate vindicated girl
Motto: it is better to lose your pride than to lose someone you love because of your useless pride!
Unforgettabe date and time: March 12, 2006 -11:17pm

-=She is=-

1.
BROKENhearted
2.
IYAKIN
3.
SWOLLEN eyed
4.
soul SEARCHING
5. searching for her ANGEL
6. LONGING for her BABYANGEL
7. MISSING herself
8. naughty
9. funny
10. simple
11. innocent
12. childlike coz she wants to be always treated as a baby but she's mature enough for some things

-=Loves=-

1.
GOD
2.
her family
3.
her BESTFRIEND
4.
herANGEL COH
5. her BABYANGEL COH
6. her BEI COH
7. her KNIGHT AND SHININ' ARMOR COH
8. her POOGE COH
9. her MAHAL COH
10. her MIRMO MAHAL COH
11. her DADI COH
12. her MONKEY COH

-=Favorites=-

1. Color: PINK
2. Gadgets: cellphone
3. : radio/mp4
4. : digital camera
5. : computer
6. Fashion : accessories/butterflies
7. : baby tops/
fitted/spags
8. : skinny jeans/skirts
/shorts[trousers/pedal pusher pants]
9. Food and drinks: pasta/pizza/tea/
frapuccino- starbucks' vanilla caramel and white mocha
10. : sweets-chocolates & ice cream
11. likes to learn new things yet easily get bored
12. a person who loves music very much
-=What makes her smile=-

1.
her family
2.
her BESTFRIEND
3.
her ANGEL COH
4.
her BABYANGEL COH
5. her BEI COH
6. her POOGE COH
7. her MIRMO MAHAL COH
8. her MAHAL COH
9. her DADI COH
10. her MONKEY COH
11. smile of myANGEL
12. lips of an ANGEL
-=What turns her on=-

1. smile
2. unbeatable/
unbreakable friendship
3. sweetness
4. sincerity
5. respects her not only as a girl but also as a person
6. trusts her and trustworthy
7. thoughtfulness
8. integrity
9. accepts her as she is
10. appreciates everythin' about her
11. understands the whole her
12. makes her feel she does still exist in this world
-=What pisses her off=-

1. plastics
2. brainwashers
3. backstabbers
4. liars
5. two-timers
6. stupidity
7. fake
8. fallacious
9. pretender
10. ridiculous
11. rumors/gossips
12. she hates cockcroaches so much...y?!kase cla lumilipad cia hinde...harhar

according to investigation her name was based on the month she was born which is april...actually it is pronounce as long a, but few of her friends really finds hard to pronounce it correctly so it became short a.

joyce..?! she really don't know where it came from... maybe from baby's book...haha.. nah...juz kidin'.. maybe her parents wanted
her to be happy all the time.. and maybe when she came out from her mother's womb.....

she laughed instead...haha... *o dba astig..pinanganak na tumatawa..sounds weird ayt??!!!*haha...


her friends usually call her aryl.. coz others find it hard to say her real name and pronounce it incorrect... some says everyl ung iba naman abbyril others say ivory
hehehe..ang panget.. gawin daw bang brandname ng shampoo name nia.. but its aryt...

*qoute*

"it hurts to be rejected by someone you love but believe me it hurts a hundred times more to be turned away who once swore undying love for YOU"

*qoute*

"it hurts to be rejected by someone you love but believe me it hurts a hundred times more to be turned away who once swore undying love for YOU"

*downloading*

1. wait for you; elliot yamin
2. ako'y sayo; firstcircle
3. your song; parokya ni edgar
4. nobody knows; babyface
5. four in the morning; gwen stefani
6. always be my baby; mariah
carey
7. your guardian angel; the red
jumpsuit apparatus
8. dream of me; kirsten dunst
9. missin you; meja
10. stay; lisa loeb
11. on bended knees; boyzIImen
12. cool with you; jennifer love hewitt
*reminisce*

1. magbalik; callalily
2. i miss you; tlc
3. home; daughtry
4. back into me; amber
5. superstar; usher
6. when you're gone; avril lavigne
7. i didn't mean to make you mine;nina
8. you're beautiful; james blunt
9. how do i breathe; mario
10. sorry, blame it on me ; akon
11. soulmate; natasha beningfield
and lastly....

12. .REBOUND; silent sanctuary*hmmm...batit kea..?!auts..!!ahehe*
*flashback*

1. love will lead you back; kyla
2. biglaan; sixcyclemind
3. bakit ba?; siakol
4. breathe again; toni braxton
5. water runs dry; boyzIImen
6. somewhere down the road; barry manilow
7. i still believe; mariah carey
8. the scientist; coldplay
9. parting time; introvoys
10. my immortal; evanescence
11. i still believe; mariah carey
12. nasaan; nyoy volante
*your judgement*


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you can close your eyes with things you don't want to see...

but you can never close your heart with the things you don't want to feelT_T


*witnesses*

ling
tere
abbey
danica
*other accounts*

friendster account
pinkmagic_12: YM account
*credits*

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a heartbreak is not always as loud as bomb explosion... sometimes, it can be silent as leaf falling... and the most painful thing is NO ONE hears it but YOU...
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tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road gonna find you wherever, ever you might go I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me...im missin you.. but nobody knows it but me
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here i go again thinking of impossible things with you how could i possibly avoid these thoughts? when i know you're with someone else i'm crazy over you, but i'm nothin' for you i'm tired of waiting, but i have to..
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i'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on on the other side I wanna break down and cry... let it burn
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if i tell you i love you, you'll think i'm lying. but i'd rather tell you i love you and let you think i'm lying than say i don't love you and know for sure i'm lying.
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late last night, I was going through some old things When i saw a picture of you, my best friend it reminded me of days when you were mine you had a way that always left me here with a smile I want those sweet days back again, cause baby just wanna be cool with you again
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i'm happy but deep down i'm not, i'm alright but in reality i'm losin' my mind, tried not to show, tried not to talk to you, but one word, one look, one smile from you.. i know.. again..i'd fall...
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i take one step away and I find myself coming back to you my one and only one and only you..
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from every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven... and when two souls that are destined to be together find each other, their streams of light flow together, and a single brighter light goes forth from their united being
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somewhere down the road our roads will gotta cross again it doesn't really matter when...but somewhere down the road
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im sayin i love you again are you listenin open your eyes again look at me cryin if only you can hear me shout your name if only you can feel my love again the stars in the sky will never be the same if only i have wings so i can fly i wanna be with you for all the time my love for you will never die if only you were here
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it's hard with the one who leaves, but it's harder with the one who is left behind..
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kay bilis..ba't umalis..nakaka-miss.. nabigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman na mawawala.. nabigla lang di mo man lamang naisip na idahan-dahan.. di ako sanay sa biglaan.. unti-unti na lang sanang nawala
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sana bukas magkita na tayong muli di na sasayangin ang bawat sandali magyayakapan tapos na ang iyakan magiging maayos na muli ang lahat
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tekti

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hahaha pacute!!!

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somewhere down the road...

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calirayagirl naman

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chekwa daw oh!!!hahaha

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nagpagupit po pala ako...ahaha...who cares?

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asan ako? ahehe...sino gusto sumama?wah hahaha...loko lang=p

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last song syndrome~bagay ba sakin ang kulot?bagay ba sakin ang kulot?wah hahahaha

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family portrait

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pahingi po pagkain!nyahahaha

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alin alin alin ang naiba wah hahahaha


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the fruits of their love!wah hahaha

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alin alin alin ang naiba wah hahahaha

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sexy!!!ahaha

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japanese garden, caliraya laguna

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ZZZzzzzzzzZZzz

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ahia jb~me

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siobejanna~me*mmmuuuaahhh*

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dihia bopbop~me

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ice cream girls

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nyahahaha

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pedritos@pangasinan

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moa

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mana sa pinagmanahan..hahaha

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models ba i2??ahehe..la kontra!

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kulang...waaahhhh

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dad~me~siobe~ahia

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our lady of lourdes church@tagaytay...asan ato?waahhh

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me~tita beng

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cousins in mother's side

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*counterclockwise* me~atzi sheila~shoti carlo~ahia~shoti miguel

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baby justin~baby yesha~adrian

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siobe janna~april~anna~me

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shoti carlo~me~tita beng~shoti miguel

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siobe~april~anna~tita beng~me~dianne

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me~tita~siobe

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miggy~caloi~me~tita@bluewave

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miggy~me~caloi~tita~ahia

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pakners in crime

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hai...ahehehe..i'm sorry but i still love you!T_T

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bunso namin...si baby ana...ahehe...sana alala mu pa po babies natin..hai...miss ka napo namin dadi..

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tell me, how do i breathe?

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Just two words, about a second to blurt out,
but can be a million years to achieve...
The more you try to get over,
the more s/he is invading the mind and the heart;
so believe me, there is no such thing as moving on,
its just a matter of getting used to the pain,
to put in one word
"NUMB"




Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
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January 8th, 2008
For everyone’s sake
After ten months of silence and before we end this year, I will now speak up what really happened…
september 2006
            my dad’s business is already going down and it came to the point that my sis and I can’t pay tuition fees on time so that my tito (mom’s eldest brother) offered help but he is going to assign my dad at Pangasinan, he will be the one who will manage the bottle washing plant there.my dad and mom has no choice so they grabbed this opportunity.it’s our first time to be apart from daddy.though before mommy needed to work at Laguna for the sake of us but still she is going home here at manila every week, so its ok…but, dad’s case is different the travel time is five hours  and the fare is so high and he can’t leave the plant just that…it made us so difficult…but later on it made us good and mommy is always there to make us understand how important it is..
we celebrate Christmas and New Year with daddy but January 3 he needs to go back to Pangasinan…=(
december 28, 2006
            my phone was snatched at Session Road at Baguio…damn!!!ahehe…no phone na tuloy…
january 2007
            I noticed that my friends were already cold to me and I don’t know the reason why…I just thought that it was because of our thesis so I just let it pass…when I talk nobody listens so I just kept silent all the time…thank God joey is always there to sit beside me when my closest friends have their own businesses…
february 8,2007
            before our school’s Tarlac- Baguio Trip, my mom talked to me about dad’s and her plan for this year.she said that after my graduation they are planning that she and janna will accompany daddy there at Pangasinan for janna is still studying, she is only grade six that time and the school she is in wasn’t good enough already…and they need to go together with daddy there because of so many rumors that dad is like this and like that because of the “jealousy”…it really made me feel bad because nineteen years of my life I’m in a complete family but its ok kase nakabaliw kaya magisa..diba? though on the other part it makes me happy at least I can learn to stand on my own feet…
march 7, 2007
            baclaran day, mommy is always attending Novena Mass every wednesday.that day she told me that she will go  to divisoria after mass…so I went home early because janna will arrived at 4…when I arrived home mommy was already there exhausted and everything…janna was already too..I asked her what happened…she told us “muntik nako maaksidente!” it made me felt weak and crying but I didn’t show up, so I seated down and asked her
             “huh?bakit po?”
             “pagbaba ko ng jeep yung jeep na kasunod ang bilis-bilis tumakbo kung nakababa        agad ako putol paa ko…”
I am so afraid and we hugged her…I can’t help it so I said “magbibihis lang po ako”. I go to my room and cry, thank God that nothing happened....i told to myself that from that day on I will always go home early na…wala lang…it’s just that I’m so afraid that if something happens toany of my family member I’m not there so I just wanted to go home to accompany them…
march 12, 2007
            my babyangel’s and I’s first anniversary…I’m very happy because we are still in love with each other even we’re not in each other’s arms he needs to help their mom to work at Qatar…we celebrated it as if we were together personally the whole day…so sweet… at a resort, we hold hands, hugged, kissed, sing along, wait for the sun come down while I’m lying at his chest and wait for a shooting star to wish that this will come true..ahehe…so sweet talaga…he really gives me a “nikikilig” feeling…and he wipes away my problems and my tears…
march 15, 2007
            I knew that daddy and mommy were arguing about some things…mommy opened up to me crying I feel like crying too but again I didn’t showed up because I know mommy would feel bad if she saw me crying…
            it is so hard to be brave in front of many people but deep inside I’m so weak crying in the corner, asking for help, but there’s no one…my friends are so cold, im afraid to tell them because I feel that when I’m with them there’s no space for me I feel like I’m left out..because once I’m speaking but no one listens minsan barado pa ko so ako nalang lumayo,umuuwi nalang ako at least doon nakakasama ko si mommy…pero andami kong nalalaman na sobrang sakit para sa pamilya namin…pakiramdam ko nilayuan nila ako kase di na ako gaano sumasama sa kanila na kala nila si arthur ung priority ko…eh kahit nga si arthur andami din naming problema wala nang time for each other but still finding free time lagi pang misunderstanding pag naglalambing ako, lagi pa siyang nagkakasakit…
           
            sobrang gulo ng utak ko nun dahil alam ko may sama ng loob parents ko sa isa’t isa ambigat ng pakiramdam…buti nga nadadaan ko sa ngiti eh…sobra…
            tapos dumating pa sa point na nagkasagutan kami ni ate grace one of my closest friend sa tropa a day after our graduation, yun yung grad kase eh…napansin din un ni mommy na hindi nia ko pinapansin ung lumalapit ako taz parang invisible ako si carol si man si shy si joan si Marianne si roni si joey lahat ng classmates naming pinansin nia pagdating sa PICC ako lang hindi…pinalampas ko un…kase nga graduation...tapos paguwi namin, sa car nagopen si mommy “bakit ganun si grace di namamansin?kahit sana gnreet nia lang kami as respect dba?”I remained silent ayoko umiyak pupunta pa kami birthday and triple celebration ng graduation sa pamilya…taz un kinabukasan, tinawag ako ni mommy…un di ko napigilan I told her everything na naging cold nga sila sakin…un sumama loob ni mommy kase kala nia ok ako sa tropa ko taz  ganun mangyayari…hai un…
isa pa nung birthday ko wala man lang nakaalala sainu…nung araw ng birthday ko pakiramdsam ko wala na ko sa inu...=(
taz lately lang nakatext ko si caun isa din xa sa closest friend ko sa tropa and we opened up about it…I thought she will understand me but she told me that I’m selfish because they thought bga na arthur is my priority…sana naisip nio kahit konti na mahal ko pamilya ko…it’s not being selfish naman eh…it’s just that I want to spend time with my family because we’re not good and soon we will be apart…ok lang pagisipan niu nako ng kahit ano pagusapan niu nako  wag lang pamilya ko…kung pinapakita ko man sainu na ok ako ayoko lang naman magalala kau sakin eh…I think its better na kase ang hirap pag pamilya na ung paguusapan eh…ung kay arthur kase  at least kaya ko pa iopen up ung problema namin…ung sa pamilya ko hindi ko parin kaya eh…un kaya ako lumayo nalang kase pakiramdam ko wala na kong space sainu…sinubukan ko magopen pero walang nakikinig eh…un ung masakit eh…
taz nung wala na dito sina mommy ung panganay nalang lagi kong kasama dito sa bahay…lalo akong nadown kase instead na palakasin nia loob ko kung anuano naririnig kong mura na never komg narinig sa magulang ko…
sorry kung ngayon lang nagsalita hindi ko kaya eh…un lang sana patawarin niu ko….sana maintindihan niu…mahal ko po kayo eh sobrang higit pa sa isang kaibigan ingin ko sainiu ayoko po mawala kau sakin pasensya napo mahal ko din pamilya ko…sana maintindihan niu….sana we can start again…sorry…
april 2, 2007
            break kami ng mahal ko…di ko alam nangyari…hai…
april 9, 2007
            sinama muna ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan ng makapag isip isip makagusp din ng maaus
april 10, 2007
            gabi na nun…we will buy things for the house…nang magmukhang bahay naman…paalis na kami nun may dalawang babae sa may gate ng subdivision tinawag si daddy “sir,san kayo?”taz pinakilala kami ni daddy ****ung dalawang babae kapal ng mukha sabi “may asawa pala kayo kala namin wala…****talaga…eh before pa andami na tsismis tungkol kay daddy….un away sila…just look back on my april 10th entry…
april 11, 2007
            mommy, janna and I go back to Manila(with swollen eyes) ahehe…we left daddy there sabi sakin ni daddy”sasama ka?”taz umiyak lang ako anghirap eh gusto ko magpaiwan kaso wala naman kasama magbiyahe sina mommy,,,,daddy hugged me tight that made me cried so hard…
april 12,2007
            anu meun dito??ahehe…birthday ko…eto lang ung birthday ko na hindi ako happy…grabe iyak ako ng iyak ahehe…walang bumati sakin…uu binati ako ni arthur pero lungkot padin ako…sabihan ka ba naman “may iba nako..”wow birthday gift ba?”taz d ko kasama parents ko pareho magkagalit pa…wala din bumati sakin na friends ko…worst birthday!!!damn!
april 15, 2007
            we go back to Pangasinan, un buti ok na sina mommy at daddy…my tito hired me for awhile as file maintenance, basta lahat ng computer works doon…
may 3, 2007
            my ahia and tita go there and we go to Baguio…un di ako nagenjoy may namimiss kase ako eh…
may 5, 2007
            sumama ako sa manila…may interview ako sa ortigas eh…first time!hahaha…un looking for work na pero anghirap eh…..
I stayed at manila for a month taz wala sobrang depressed buti nga di ako natuluyan wah hahaha….loko lang…taz un sinama ulit ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan
july 2007
            pumunta si ahia for vacation…sumama ulit ako pagbalik wala lang.i realized na dito buhay ko sa manila eh…
august 25, 2007
            nagkita kami ni jarmaine (pakner coh) bestfriend ko since first year high school…after four years nagkita ulit kami last na kita naming entrance exam pa sa st. paul ahehe..un…wala lang kain all day.,..hahaha
september 6, 2007
            dayoff ni tita beng so we went to novaliches wala lang bisita kay lola, saka sa mga maliliit kong pinsan na alaga ko…ahehe
           
september 20, 2007
            sa wakas sumama si bopbop sa Pangasinan…ahehe…nakumpleto ulit kami…katuwa ansayasaya…we attend mass at Our Lady of Manaoag, enjoy the place*mostly restaurants..ahehe..katakawan*,support janna at her cheering…
october 10, 2007
            we went  back to manila...i passed many resumes before I go naman eh pero ung mga pinupuntahan kong interviews arrgghhh…
october 17, 2007
            nabadtrip ako sa bahay eh ahehe,..wala lang ahia kase m16 nanaman hahhaha…ub pumnta ako kina manila taz nagharbour kami…
taz un wala na masyado happenings…tambay sa smith (cousin’s house) wala lang dsl sila nakikiinternet…punta makati at ortigas for interview…
october 22, 2007
            nagalaga ako ng bata hahaha…si yesha iniwan sakin ansaya…hahaha 4 years old,…apat  na araw lang naman ahehe
november 1, 2007
            pumunta kami sementeryo…sa holy cross sa novaliches sa lolo kong intsik…hahaha…
november 5, 2007
            naglaba ako nun eh hahaha nagsasampampay kase ako nun eh bigla nagtext si caun nagyayaya sa mcdo birthday nia…un kita kami…kasama nia officemates nia sina janet and rachel…un..ahhehe
november 17, 2007
            galing smith nakikain kasama ko si tita Arlene saka ung dalawa ko pang pinsan (Adrian and Justin) taz punta kami rob place taz nagtext si manila puunta dw ako kanila celebration ng birthday nia…tsk3kain nanaman hahaha..kumakain na kami actually nung nagtext siya eh..un…pumunta nalang ako for appearance wah hahaha…un andun na sina caun, shy saka si jp(bangag na officemate ni shy hahaha)peace man…taz maya maya dumating si ate grace…un aheehetaz un di na ko nakakain sobrang busog ice cream nalang hahaha….taz un 10 nagkayayaan magbar...sa malate (wah first time hahaha)un andun na ung officemates ni caun…mga bangag na peo cool ahehe…un uminom kami light lang naman un lang naman kaya ko eh 1bote at kalahati ahehe…good girl ato…wah hai sorry absta sorry kung sino ka man…happenings lang naman…if ever na mababasa mo to sorry…un nakitulog kina janet…2am na kase un eh…

december???la naman pagbabago eh ahehehe...

anyweiz...that's how my 2007 gone thru

i wish and i know that magiging happy na ulit aq this year

yipee

happy new year

           
           

Posted by aryl at 02:57 PM | overruled

November 6th, 2007
confessions of a brokenheart(part Vi- a letter to GOD)

dear god,

 

thank you po at nakakaya ko parin po lahat…thank you po sa araw araw na binibigay niu saking pagasa…naniniwala po ako na darating din po ung araw na ngingiti po ako ulit…patawarin niu po sana ako sa mga nagawa ko dati na naoffend po kau…sorry po talaga…sana po magkabati napo kami ng angel ko…miss na miss ko napo siya…naniniwala po ako na someday, somewhere and somehow my and arthur’s road will gotta cross again at mapaguusapan po namin lahat ng maaus….naniniwala po ako na baka hindi lang po talaga ngayon ang oras naming dalawa kase po nung magsisimula palang po kami kailangan napo naming maghiwalay…na long distance po ung magiging relationship namin…naniniwala po ako na baka kailangan muna naming tuparin mga pangarap naming dalawa ng magkahiwalay..na baka kailangan buuin muna namin ng magkalayo…at baka balang araw kami parin pos a huli…papa god mahal na mahal kop o angel ko…bestfriend ko… sana tulungan niu ako ayusin buhay ko habang naghihintay po sakanya…papa god tulungan niu po ako buhatin ung cross kopo…pawiin niu po sana ung sakit na nararamdaman namin…punasan niu po sana ung bawat patak ng luha na pumapatak sa mata po namin…bigyan niu po sana kami ng lakas para makayanan lahat ito…at sana po maging maaus napo ulit lahat…sana poi tama niu po lahat ng mali…naniniwala po ako na walang imposible sainiu na meyroong tamang panahon at lugar para sa lahat…naniniwala po ako na ililigtas niu po ako sa kalungkutang ito…at balang araw magiging maaus po ulit lahat…

 

alm niu po ba bakit di ko po magawa sumuko…kase po bawat araw po na gumigising ako…alam ko po panibagong pagasa po un…maraming salamat po ssa araw araw na buhay po ba pinapahiram niu sakin at panibagong pagasa po…saka po naniniwala po ako na hindi po ganun angel ko po ung pinahiram niu po sakin…alam ko po nababalutan lang po siya ng pride at kasinungalingan…naniniwala po ako in your right time po lalabas at lalabas padin po ung totoo…hai..

 

tulungan niu rin po sana si jarmaine…pareho po kami ng pinagdadaanan ngayon…tulungan niu po kami makaya lahat to…sana po maging masaya napo ulit kami ng pakner q…pangako po…papangitiin kopo siya lagi…sana po maging happy napo siya ulit…ung sakit po na nararamdaman nia sana akin nalang po…ayoko po kase nalulungkot pakner ko eh…tulungan niu po sana kami…

 

sana po maging maaus napo ulit lahat…ibalik niu po sana ung ngiti sa mga labi po namin…sana po magkabati napo lahat ng magkaaway…para pagdating po ng birthday niu po masaya nap ulit lahat…thank you po ulit…

 

                                                                                                                                    Amen…

 

love,

                                                                                                                                    aryl

 

…i guess only to have amnesia para maging ok na ulit ako…pero di padin kase ISIP lang naman nakakakimot diba?hindi ung PUSO…right?hai…pero di puede alam ko i need to be brave and strong…and i know and i believe naman na God will never hit problems without a solution dba?right time and place lang siguro talaga…

 

to my body, sorry and i promise to take care of you na ulit para maalagaan natin siya pagbalik nia…hai…everything’s gonna be fine…

 

to my heart, sige magmahal ka lang…jan naman tau masaya dba?pero sana wag na muna masyado…ako na muna siguro mahalin mu ulit para if ever God will give us a chance to be with him again magiging happy na ulit tau…dba?sana tulungan mu din ako…kase naniniwala naman ako na hindi tau forever ganito…basta pray lang tau kase si God lang nakakaintindi sating dalawa…hahaha…nagagalit si isip saka si katawan oh…hai…basta magiging ok ulit lahat just trust and stay in love with God…

 

“no matter how softly we pray, God listens and understands. He knows the hopes and fears we keep in our hearts. And if we trust in His love, MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!”

 

oh ayan…ahehehe…hai…di ko po alam pano tatapusin ung confessions ko…basta babalitaan ko na lang po kau!ipagdasal niu din po sana ko huh?thank you po!hai

 

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October 23rd, 2007
buhay prinsesa

ibang-iba talaga ang buhay prinsesa sa buhay ng ordinaryong tao. bakit? kase diba ang prinsesa nakaupo lang siya lalapit na ung kailangan nia...isang tawag nia lang sa yaya nia nandyan na ung kailangan nia…kasama pa nia pamilya nia…eh ang ordinaryong tao kailangan kumilos para mabuhay siya…right?

 

let me share, this is based on my own experience…

 

i grew up with my whole family and my yaya…kaya full support talaga…though sometimes may sibling rival…di naman mawawala un dba? kase i’m the “bunso” and only girl for eight years…and medyo mahina ung psychomotor skills ko…so, our eldest, makes me “away” palagi kase daw sakin lagi ung attention…ahehe…un… tapos, halos lahat dati nasa akin na…pero siyempre may limit parin kase di naman ata puede sa parents ko ung spoiled brat…and wala talagang favoritism samin, kung sino mali pagsasabihan..uu supportive sila in terms of sa lahat talaga, saka kung meron talaga (money) ibibili kami ng gusto namin, but not all the times…in that eight years, i really feel i’m a princess because simula magkamalay ako lagi na sila nasa tabi ko…minsan naiiwan sa yaya ko…pero madalas kasama ako ni mommy sa office nia…taz dun sa office tinuturuan ako ng auntie ko kung panu magsulat ng Chinese characters…*kaso limot ko na ahehe* or if not may pasalubong naman ako isang candy masaya nako…ahehe…or if not, basta, may pambili ako ng chalk para i’ll play with my cuz atzi Sheila ”teacher teacheran” di naman mawawala sa bata un eh…and of course, Barbie dolls!!! i remember, may deal kami ni daddy nun na pag mataas grades ko…he will buy me the “cut and style Barbie doll”ahehe…un tuwang tuwa ako nung nagkaroon ako nun…and one thing halos lahat ng kumare ni mommy hinihiram ako ako ung Barbie doll nila…wah hahaha…un…basta, sobrang enjoy ako nun nung bata ako kahit lagi ako away nung ahia ko…ahehe…pero ayt lang kase anjan naman si bopbop (my dihia, i used to call him bopbop because his nickname is jof  wala lang lambing lang) lagi ako pinagtatanggol…alala ko pa dati umuulan nun eh may sakit si mommy nun bakasyon si yaya umuulan, baha eh walking distance lang naman ung school si bop ung sumundo sakin sobrang bigat ng bag ko nun buhat nia sa harap ung bag ko…taz pasan nia ko sa likod ayaw nia ko paglakadin baha daw baka dw magkasakit ako ung sa mga rat ahehe…taz nasira ung slipper nia sabi ko ibaba nia nako ayaw nia un nakapaa siya nung uwi kami kea love ko un si bop eh…and isa pa pala hatid sundo ako nun sa room simula aral ako hanggang grade 5…pinupuntahan pa ko ng yaya ko pag lunch para pakainin…nyahahaha…pero in fairness, i’m doing good in school naman…hahaha…and then, lagi kase ako binubully sa school iyakin kase ako eh…hahaha…pero ok lang anjan naman si  bopbop and ung tropa nia na mga kuya ko din and ung mga ate ko na tropa nia…they are ate Gee- Ann, ate Monica, ate Hazel but  one girl i can’t really forget is ate”Kristine H. Alburo” my ate tin tin or believe it or not she is now known as “Kristine Hermosa” di pa siya artista nun…basta tropa siya ni bopbop and siya ung ate ate ko dun sa school…she’s so caring as if she’s really my real ate…o diba babyng baby ako…nyahaha…kea happy ako nun kase kahit di ko alam kung sino totoo friend ko sa room…lagi naman ako happy pag recess lunch and uwian kase un nga meron ako mga ate at kuya na binibaby ako…ahehe…pag nasa room aral lang talaga…wah..kase lagi ako nagogoyo bait kase eh.. waahh hahaha...basta happy ako nung bata ako…kase ramdam ko na mahal talaga ako ng lahat na special ako…boys?wala di yan pumasok sa isip ko dati…grade 6 na nga ako nagkacrush eh…pero tatlo ung crush ko nun…wah hahaha… bigat… they are Fritz B. Razal- our Valedictorian…Gene Jesus Arseño- an athlete…and of course Mark Jayson G. Sy- my partner in our Graduation wala lang ang kulit kase nia eh… biglang mangangalabit sabay tago…wah hahaha pero naging kaclose ko un…ai may crush na pala ko nung bata ako…si kuya pj…wah hahaha…angkulit kase nia pag laro kami eh gawin ba kong manibela taz bubuhatin ako…nyahaha…nweiz anak pala siya nung kumare ni mommy na classmate ni bop…o dba?sabay bawi…nyahaha

 

and then, janna came (my siobe) siyempre new baby, lahat ng attention kanya na…ahehe…though prepared naman na talaga ako kase gusto ko talaga magkaroon kami ng baby…natuwa nga ako nun na baby girl kase syempre both of my siblings are boys kea super duper over mega protected ako nun…hahaha…o dba?un saya ako kase may baby girl na kami may aayusan na ko, kalaro and everything…un…

 

twenty years of my life kasama ko buong family ko…may yaya pa pero 1st year college my yaya left us na kase mag aasawa na siya..kea un unti-unti natuto ako maglaba, magplantsa, maglinis ng bahay pero di naman totally ako gumagawa kase my mom is there except magluto kase si mommy ung nagluluto assistant lang ako…ahehe…

 

tapos eto na, graduate na ko i really need to learn on my own…kase my parents are assigned in Pangasinan, they have to manage my uncle’s bottle washing plant there…so un…feeling ko independent na ko wah ang babaw ko nu?though kasama ko naman sa house ung two brothers ko and our tita…pero siyempre kanya-kanya nang laba, plantsa, pagkain?hati-hati kami sa pamalengke tapos kung sino available siya magluluto…eh since ako ung wala pang work parang ako lahat…budget ko lang ung allowance ko na bigay nina daddy…

 

dati gigising ako ok na lahat…kakain, may milk na, may pampaligo na ko and everything papasok nalang ako school…pagdating ko, may kakain, hugas plato, aaral, telepono(left-landline and right- suncell wah hahaha), text, radio, tulog…pag may exams pa ko di ako maghuhugas…pero may kapalit hahaha…siyempre ako ung ate, tuturuan ko si janna…ahehe…eh madalas sabay kami ng exams…saya…pero siya inuuna ko siyempre…hahaha…kea love ako nun eh nyahaha…ako gawa assignments niya lalo na math…wah hahaha…kea love na love nia ko…nyahaha…ngaun…dun din siya Pangasinan  pag may assignment siya math ako padin sasagot nyahahaha…

 

ngaun pagkagising ko, wala pagkain, kailangan maginit ng tubig pang milk ko at pang coffee ni tita…lilinis bahay…magsasaing, magiisip kung ano iuulam sa lunch…nyahaha…peo minsan lang naman ako magluto pag madali lang, like prito, nilaga, afritada, kaldereta, adobo, saka carbonara the best nyahaha… taz hugas plato…akalain mu un? si aryl, gumagalaw…nyahaha…alam mu ba one time nagprito ako ng bangus, natalamsikan ako wah hahaha masakit un…tapos, pag wala na ko damit siyempre kailangan na maglaba ni Cinderella…wah hahaha…pero in fairness ambango ng labahin ko…pag tuyo na tutupiin…kailangan plantsahin ang pangalis…hahaha…kase pag magpapalaba  pa sa laundry shop dagdag gastos pa…wag na lang…dba?

 

grabe, sobrang iba ung buhay ko ngaun…kung dati isang tawag ko lang may gagawa na for me…ngaun, ako na kailangan gumawa di pa puede magreklamo kase sariling gawa…kailangan ulitin pag palpak…pag may nawawala gamit tanong lang kay mommy, makikita ko na, ngaun i need to look it  for myself…dati pag may sakit ako may magaalaga nakahiga lang ako…ngaun kailangn ko bumangon at magluto para sa sarili ko, bumili ng gamot and everything…dati pag tanggal ung botones ng isusuot ko or di pa plantsado andyan si yaya or si mommy…ngaun kailangan ko na gumising ng mas maaga if ever may lakad ako…dati,pag may gusto ako bilhin kukunin ko nalang wallet ko, dun sa ipon ko, then go bili…ngaun, kailangan ko pa isipin kung kailangan ko talaga nun at pinagkakasya ko lang ung allowance ko kina daddy…siyempre nakakahiya naman ung hingi ako ng hingi dba?dati pag may nagustuhan ako damit bibilihin ko basta may pera ako…dati kuha lang ng kuha ngaun, kailangan ko na isipin kung may panggastos pa ko kinabukasan…dati pag sobrang kailangan ko lang maglaba dun lang ako maglalaba pero isang pair lang un ng uniform…pero ngaun ako na naglalaba ng lahat ng damit ko…ahehe…

 

dati pag binubulyawan ako ni ahia anjan si mommy para patigilin siya…ngaun wala kailangan ko tanggapin ung ,ga masasakit na salita like “ano  ba di ka nagiisip kahit kalian ka…lagi ka nalng umaasa and everything…mayabang ka na huh?isusumbong kita”eh wala naman ako ginagawa sakanya…hai taz instead of moral support pag may interview ako he will say”di na tatawag un!”one time nga nagaway kami wala kami lang dalawa ditto sa house nun…di ko natiis sinagot ko na…hai…i know its bad pero sobra na eh…un umalis ako di ako kumain nung handa nia, bumalik na ko gabi na nagpalamig lang tambay sa harbour square *starbucks*…un…taz tumawag sina daddy…todo iyak talaga ako nun…hai…ahehe…di ko siya pansin…kinakausap nia ko pero sagot ko casual lang…un…ahehe..ganun ahia ko…sanayan lang talaga…pero kahit ganun un love ko padin un…

 

pero ok lang, at least natututo na ko!puede na ko magasawa! wah hahaha just kiddin…ayoko pa po…hmm why?*wala pa naman aasawahin eh!wah hahaha…loko lang ulit* siyempre, there’s still a part of me waiting and hoping…and siyempre i need to learn a lot of things pa…para if ever he comes back…marunong na talaga ako sa lahat…dba?hai…i’m doin this not only for myself, but also  for you babyangel! for us, katulad po nung pangako mo in the near future… kase you are still the man of my dreams in my future…hai…pasensya na huh? di kita maalis sa sistema ko…mahal talaga kita pero di napo kita hahabulin…baka masaktan nanaman ako parang tinuturing mo po kase akong hangin eh…ansakit po…tama napo muna kase ung mga sinabi mo po nandito parin mabigat napo masyado…masakit…

 

at eto pa…hai anhirap magisa kase dati lagi ako may moral support sa bestfriend and boyfriend ko na “bei you can do it, kaw pa mana ka sakin diba, iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou”tapos, pag natapos ko na or even if not may feedback lagi “kita angel sabi sau kaya mu yan eh…iloveyou so so so much..mahal na mahal kita” hai nakakamiss un ung maya maya na “i love you babyangel ko!you’re my one and only one…and i can’t afford to lose you…mahal na mahal na mahal kita! sobra sobra pa”haaii…anhirap sobrang miss ko na babyangel ko! ngaun, nothing but myself, that’s the hardest part of all…

 

let me share with you this little thing…you know before my parents left, our neighbor asked me”oh talaga si aryl?magisa?teka kaya mo ba?” i just smiled yet my mom butt-in “oo kaya nian basta may cellphone yan saka kausap nia boyfriend nian masaya na yan…magagawa nian lahat…” i was really shocked that it came from my mom i am not that open kase eh…though siya lang talaga ung unang lalaking kinuento ko sa kanila…and bukambibig ko siya sa house and pag asar ako ng mga kapatid ko and si tita…ahehe…iba padin…kase kay mommy nanggaling dba?saya! pero hai i really wish na maging ok na ulit lahat…hai…

 

one last, when we watched Shrek III, diba there’s a scene that they are looking for arthur…un all of them were teasing me ”oi aryl si arthur daw ilabas mo tinatago mo pa kainin ka ni shrek!”wah hahaha..hai un nalungkot ako…kase di ko naman alam kung san siya hahanapin eh…punta ako cr dun ako iyak…wah ahehehe…hai

 

isa pa pala…wah hahaha…hai…my siobe told me…”atzi, graduate ka na, wag ka muna magaasawa huh?pero kung si kuya arthur ok lang…basta ako muna baby niu” wah hahaha

 

i really thought i’m done with crying na…kase i didn’t cry for the last two days…nadehydrate ata…wah hahaha… but kanina when i watched “mirmo de pon”*uu childish na kung childish pero there’s a reason behind that’s why i’m watchin’ it- siya kase nagpakilala sakin kay mirmo eh kase dati nakalimutan ko na talaga ung tv…i really don’t watch tv  simula nung nahilig ako sa radio at saka nakasun kase ako nun walang signal sa baba so sa room nalang ako…pag nanonood ako music channel padin…ahehehe…but then un he told me about mirmo de pon he said that partner daw kami ako daw si “reema mahal nia” siya naman daw si “mirmo mahal ko” ahehe…tapos un i asked janna about it for more information tapos un nakita ko na nacute-an ako sa characters…un pinanood ko na…ahehe…parang cardcaptor sakura-ung last anime na inabangan ko talaga—

 

tapos un nga ung episode kase kanina ung kailangan bumalik nina mirmo sa muglocks world  pero makakalimutan na sila nung partner nilang tao at di na sila makakabalik sa mundo ng mga tao unless may humiling na pabalikin sila…pero pag nagpumilit sila puede sila mawala habangbuhay…sabi ni mirmo bago siya umalis ”pangako Katie babalik ako…gusto ko pagbalik ko marami akong komocho huh”

*un my tears began to fall…alala ko kase siya eh bago siya umalis sabi nia”angel ko pangako babalikan kita pero gusto ko pagbalik ko ikaw padin ung masayahin ,mapagmahal, respetado. palangiti, maalaga, basta lahat sau ung minahal kong aryl ung angel ko ung bestfriend ko ung mahal ko gusto ko ganun padin…mahal na mahal na mahal kita angel ko tandaan mo yan…hinding hindi na ko maghahanap ng iba”*

taz un nakalimutan siya ni Katie pero ramdam nia na may kulang…to make the long story short, gumawa si mirmo ng paraan para makabalik sa mundo ng mga tao…di siya natutulog…nagreresearch siya sa gabi pero pag sa araw hindi nia pinapahalata na gusto padin nia bumalik kay Katie kase nga nangako siya…taz un di nagtagal nakita nia na ung solusyon nagpadala siya ng message kay Katie na iwish na sana makita nia ulit si mirmo…taz naalala na ni Katie lahat…tapos un bumalik na si mirmo…taz meron pa, nung aalis na si sauri ung friend nila, hinatid nila sa airport sabi ni Katie ”Sauri, kahit ano mangyari tandaan mo na nandito lang kami na kaibigan mo…hinding hindi kita makakalimutan…magsusulatan tayo huh…”tapos si Sauri sabi nia “ano ka ba naman Katie?ayoko rin naman iwanan kayo eh espesyal na kayo sakin pero kailangan pera sa career ko…”

 *un lalo ako naiyak kase kahit hindi ko siya hinatid sa airport kase alam ko babaha ng luha sa airport halos ganun   kase ung usapan namin bago siya umalis eh…un umiyak nanaman ako kanina namimiss ko na talaga angel ko   sobra…sana ako din makalimutan ko for awhile tapos pagbalik na lang nia ulit…hai…*

 

i still want you, i still need you, i still love you…moving on doesn’t really mean forgetting you but i just don’t know how to…i miss me, i miss the happy jolly me…i feel so empty…i feel so hollow…i need you, i just need you because i love you so much…i want to be happy, but i wanna face all of these…i miss my bestfriend…my angel…my everythin…i need you…i love you…

 

i know i must do my thing first…hai…but i’ll still wait…tanga na kung tanga…hai

 

ayan ang buhay ni Averyll Joyce V. Valdenarro…

 

bow!

 

thank you po!

 

ai wait pahabol, alam niu ung fortune cookie sa chowking…?ahehe…i’ll just share what i’ve got and i really feel that its for me…sana lang tama ung pagkakaintindi ko…nyahaha…

 

          “Balance your emotions by not giving too much too quickly. Something hard earned is treasured much more.”

 

uhmm.. correct me if i’m wrong huh? ahehe

         

          for me kase, ganito pagkakaintindi ko…

 

Balance your emotions by not giving too much too quickly.

wag sumuko ng ganun-ganun lang kase anjan naman si God eh…as long as you trust Him may pag asa pero siyempre as a person we need to do our thing…basta stay in His love and trustung Him kase everything’s gonna be fine if you’re with Him… don’t give up because everyday is a chance what you’re praying for…and just always be positive kase being positive is grabbing that blessing that you’re praying for and grabbing what you’re heart longs…

 

                    Something hard earned is treasured much more.

diba we’re best of friends? basta ahehe…un diba pag nagsimula kau as friends marami na kau napagdaanan so it is hard earned and will be treasured more…hai…un…share ko lang…

 

if you don’t agree leave a comment po huh? or tag me po…

 

thank you po in advance…

        

Posted by aryl at 05:42 PM | overruled

October 12th, 2007
confessions of a brokenheart(part V- thank you and goodbye)
thanks and gudbye 2 everyone...cams, louraine, kit,tin bart, ate dianne at Dianne pati pala si anne/ate ganda pa po pala...:salamat sa inung lahat...

 karen...ingatan mo xa….....aaminin q galit pdin aq sau s panggulo mu samin dti...nagawa mo! nabawi mu xa sana lang ingatan mo bestfriend q at mahal q....babalikan talaga kita pag nalaman q pinaiyak mo ulit xa...sana masaya kana nabawi mo naxa...sorry minahal q xa …ano right mu iopen ung ym account nia?ung pakikipagtextmate mu?gagawa ka lang ng istorya halata pa…at nung birthday mo ang tigas mo din para  may tumawag sakanya hinahanap ka binabati ka happy birthday…at diba kakapalan ng mukha ang magpapasaload sa boyfriend ko?at take note nakaglobe ka nun…nung sinabi nia smart siya bigla kadin nagsmart anu motibo mu para makuha ung number nia?ang galing mu rin nu?porket alam mu na hindi kaya tumanggi ni arthur sa babae?sa kaibigan?tinanggap na kita nun bilang kaibigan Karen pero anu ginawa mu?sinira mu pdn…at ung offline message mu na ‘I still love you but I cannot have you’damn Karen nagtitimpi lng ako nun dahil ayoko ng gulo…at pinipigilan lang ako ni arthur…sana marunong ka gumalang ng relasyon Karen… di lang naman kami ung ginulo mo eh pati sila ni trish…nakakausap ko si trish dati sabi nia pag di ka tumigil susugurin ka nia sabi ko ako na bahala sau…bakit ba nung mga panahong nasayo siya pinabayaan mo masaktan siya..?di mo siya pinaglaban..?bakit kung kalian alam mo na masaya siya sa piling ng iba manggugulo ka…?porket alam mo na sobrang minahal ka ni arthur…hai…damn taz sasabihin mo ngaun kamusta ako at gusto mo ko tulungan?nangiinsulto ka ba?taz magmamalinis ka na wala kang ginagawa?sabi mo sakin ‘wala ako napala nun’ ano?edi inamin mo dn…taz bigla ka nagoffline bakit guilty ka?SANA MASAYA KA NA!!!!NABAWI MU NA SIYA! MAKAKAHANAP KADIN NG KATAPAT MU KAREN SINASABI KO SAU!
Arthur magalit ka na sakin pero alam mo tong mga sinasabi ko dito…subukan mo ideny lahat ng ito…lahat ng nakasulat dito…ipapabasa  ko sau lahat…iisaisahin ko sau….tutal naman wala ka na talaga pakielam sakin dba?kinalimutan mo na ko malamang binura mo na ko sa memorya mo…pero sana lang pag dumating ung tamang panahon ndi mo hahanapin ung aryl na nakikilala mo ung bestfriend mo…sino nga ba naman ako sau?WALA NAMAN DIBA?PANAKIPBUTAS NIU LANG NAMAN AKO PAG NALULUNGKOT KAU EH…TAPOS PAG SAWA NA KAU BASTA-BASTA NIU NALANG AKO ITATAPON NA PARANG LARUAN LANG…PAPALITAN…GANUN LANG NAMAN AKO SA INIU DBA?damn arthur ikaw pa tinuring kita totoong kaibgan…sabi ko sau dati diba ‘angel ayoko po gagamit ka ng babae para kalimutan ung mahal mo huh…wag kapo magpapaiyak ng babae’tapos ako pala magiging biktima mo…asan ka nab a jay arthur bakit ka nagpakain sa pride mo?sa galit?sa kasinungalingan?angel ko asan ka na?ansakitsakit nung mga sinabi mo sakin na ‘kung di kita minahal di sana ndi ako naging sunudsunuran sau’damn arthur kahit kalian di kita inunder kahit kalian………sana isipin mo sating dalawa sino nagging sunudsunuran…lahat ginawa ko para sayo sinubukan ko lahat para mapasaya ka…tapos meron pang times na nagalit ka sakin bigla ng di ko naman alam dahilan…di mo ko papansinin pansinin mo man barado ako lagi…siguro kung matindi lang hika ko matagal na ko nawala at sana ganun nalang nangyari atleast nung time na un alam ko mahal mo ako…edi masaya ako nawala diba?kaysa ngaun puro sakit at tanong…mahirap kase sarili ko lang dumadamay sa sarili ko…pero sa kabila ng lahat ng sakit na ‘to mahal na mahal padin kita…

jaymie thanks for everythin...ky mharz, bobby, aj, tito tita niu mama niu basta po lahat kau...cla kahit di pa po nila q namimeet basta thank u po sa pagtanggap...namamanhid npo puso q sa sobrang sakit...magpapahinga napo aq...salamat po...alam mu naman po na kua mu lang po minahal q ng gan2...cguro po glit kau skin...sorry po kung anu man po dahilan...hannggang ngaun po umiiyak pdn aq lagi nlng aq inii1 nkahang...dq po alam...mahal na mahal qpo c jay arthur...pero alam qpo di natin xa kaya turuan...di q lng po talaga alm nu nangyari samin eh...basta sorry po...advance hapy birthday po sa mama niu...c mharz po i wish ok xa and ung baby...marlyn...sorry din po ung dti...bea...sorry...trish...sorry...jaymie maraming salamat sa lahat lahat sa pakikinig sa simula palang anjan ka nap o para saming dalawa salamat sa pagbisita sakin pg may time ka…salamat sa bawat patak ng pawis mo sa pagpapaload samin…salamat sa bawat mensahe na para sakin galing sa mahal ko…salamat sa bawat pgdial mo ng number ko makapagusap lang kami…salamat nung pagalis nia you never fail na you’ll call me up just to know if I’m alright…salamat sa pagpapangiti niu sakin ni mharz everytime na malungkot ako at namimiss ko xa…salamat sa pagtulong sa pagaus ng problema namin pag di ko na kaya…higit sa lahat salamat sa pakikipagkabigan niu sakin…pagtanggap na parang malapit po talaga sa puso niu….maramingmaraming salamat…miss ko napo kau…happy birthday po ulit sa mama niu sa October 27  po dba?un po…salamat po…

di ko lang po maintindihan bakit po sunodsunod kau kailangan lumau sakin…una mga kaibigan ko naglaho bigla…sumunod bestfriend ko at boyfriend sumuko sa pagdamay sa time of downfall ko…tapos need ko na humiwalay sa parents ko para matuto to budget on my own…haaiii…

magpapahinga na po aq...pagod napo q umiyak...peo sana try niu rin po ilagay sarili niu sa sitwasyon q...lagi nalang po aq ung nasasaktan...nagmamahal lang naman po aq ng totoo at ang pinnakamasakit po lagi nalang aq iniiwan di q alam kung bakit...di naman aq nanggago nanloko o kahit nagsinungaling...di qpo mahanap sarili q magc6 mos npo peo di aq makahanap ng trabaho dahil wala aq sa sarili q..magpapaalam napo muna q sainung lahat...salamat po...sorry..

pakner…thank you sobra sa lahat lahat…basta po tandaan mo lagi lang po ako nandito para sayo…opo parehas po tayo ng pingdadaanan ngaun..pero I’m telling you po magiging happy po ulit tau…pray lang po tau lagi and everythin’s gonna be fine again…kahit mahina po ako at higit sa lahat iyakin tandaan mo po pag lungkot kapo I’ll do my best to make you smile pakner…promise di kita iwan…tulad po ng promise natin sa isa’t isa through good and bad we’ll be together…diba po?di po kita iwan pangako…sana ikaw din po…wag kapo magsawa sa pakner mong iyakin…ahehehe..diba po ‘eveyday is a step closer to the day we are waitin for…?hmm…anu kea un…?secret di puede sabihin satin lang un..basta po pakner magkakatotoo un…ahehe…wabshue pakner…

dipo nagpapaawa sainiu gusto ko lng magpasalamat sa iniung lahat….ayoko po kaawaan niu ko please lang po…ayoko ng awa…salamat pos a iniung lahat…

….to be continued….


Posted by aryl at 07:54 PM | overruled

confessions of a brokenheart(part IV- letter to the one who left me)
Arthur di q alam kung san at pano aq magsisimula…di q kse alam kung anu nangyari satin eh…kse our love seems to be perfect…and i believe that nothin on earth could come between us…ang alam q ok tau…masaya…kse ikaw na mismo nagsabi
”bei ang importante po mahal kita mahal mo q masaya tau…kuntento tau sa isa’t isa…un po ung mahalaga…mahal na mahal kita”
kala q naiintindihan mu q…alam mu na may problema ung pamilya q…at may nangyari sa tropaq…alam mu na sobrang down aq nun…sau lng aq kumukuha ng lakas para makayanan lahat…isa pa bestfriend kita…ganun naman tau diba kahit dati pa nagdadamayan…nagiiyakan…sana sinabi mu sakin na bawat pagshare q sau ng problema q bawat pagiyak q naiinis ka…para sinolo q nlng…kinaya q nlng…sana alam mu dn na sa bawat pagiyak q naisip mu na kailangan q ung comfort mu ung comfort ng bestfriend q ung comfort ng angel q…kse dti alam na nia pag ndi aq ok pag tahimik aq pag ndi aq nagsasalita inuunahan nia na q…pinapatawa nia na q…kala q naiintindihan mu q kse sbi mu “angel wala masama sau di lang kau nagkaintindihan….dito ka muna sakin poprotektahan kita kahit mahina pq aq bahala sau di kita iiwan…sana alam mu na mahal na mahal kita…ikaw lang lahat q…mawala na silang lahat wag lang ikaw”kaya sobrang kalmado q kpg anjn ka nakakalimutan q lahat ng problema q pag nilalambing mu q…nagiging masaya q kase nararamdaman q na importante pa pala q…alm mu na nagmumukhang hangin aq pag kasama q mga kaibigan q…ung tipong nagsasalita aq walang nakikinig o di kaya sasapawan o babarahin nalang aq bigla kaya mas gusto ko umuwi at katxt ka…kase sau palagay loob q kahit malau k…pinaramdam mu skin na i do still exist…sa pamilya q momi q lagi xa umiiyak sakin sa kalagayan namin alam mu yan…simula bg mgwork c dadi sa malau alam mu na marami na qng problema alam mu na muntik na q tumigil sa pagaaral q dahil dun…alam mu lahat un konting pagdamay at pagintindi lng naman ang hinihingi q sau bestfriend kse kita eh…sau q lng nasasabi lahat…ikaw lang nakakaintindi sakin..

bakit mu po ba sinasabi na hindi mu q kaya tapatan?isipin