i shd really be saving, but the way i see it, the malaysia trip was doomed to begin wif... too many ppl too lil cash, and lotsa other factors... been complaining that im not getting the attention that i want from girls these past few months... currently im getting the cold treatment from my ex Calista, then this girl Serene of whom ive met at MOS some 2 mnths ago is giving me some kinda weird treatment... i can onli get a reply from her if i sms her arnd 12am... if not the msg seems like it didnt go thru! so i decided i did something constructive instead of waiting for these 2 girls to respond...
i had the intention of enjoying my weekend and not think abt female company, but i guess alchol and ciggerates tend to make u forget a lil and then give you the full blown effect of noticeing theres something missing in your life!
Friday night was wif PAC peeps Kev, Matt and Enwei... location was this place at the MOD living building in bugis? its called Roof... cool name, nice sounds and its open aired... great to chill out xcept for the pricing for its drinks?? plus their hse pour draft is Asahi... not really my kinda beer,
Saturday was MOMO... wif Ash and Alio! although we din get any girls to dance wif, we did some observation on how other guys seemed to be enjoying themselves at the dance floor, it seemed to me that the guys were easily amused and kinda pathetic... there was this 1 guy who jus really enjoyed rubbing his thigh on this girl's thigh for a couple of minutes grinning all the way till she got weirded out... kinda reminds me of those peverts that steal underwear or smthing? i mean cant they jus go up to the girl and ask in the most friendly tone,' Hi im ....... omg u have such nice thighs! can i rub mine against urs for a while?' then she'd prolly say,' what!!?!#!#' then he'd jus wink and do it anyways thinking she was agreeable since he onli saw her lips move... but then she wld make contact wif him and tell him not to do it anymore! then he scores...
anyway, i havent picked up a girl since serene and havent had the mindset to... ive been telling myself that i want to be a good guy now, and jus stick to one target... i tried, i failed terribly and the more i try to get back to Calista the more i am pushed away... from her and my friends who know abt this... i tell myself that if this is really love i shd go for it, but i jus feel its not working out, so im backing out of this whole thing now, im jus gona play thru my life and not think abt commiting anymore, this way no one gets hurt
Today, jem had a proposal for me... go to the wakefest afterparty at Q-bar... donnoe where that is but according to my past experience during the past afterparties, there seems to be lotsa guys wif their girlfriends... and its a very tight family of ppl there, so getting into conversations are really hard when no one wants to mingle wif the singles...
was bitching wif alio in the morning after we left frm momo for supper... why is it that we are such failures? i cant even score a proper date for the last 8 mnths, i dun wanna talk abt his cuz this is my blog lol... where is our mojo? anyway i believe whateva values i had in the past are all bullshit, i mean who really wants a 1 woman man? those guys are really weird or nerds... who wants a 1 guy onli woman? she wld either hav really flat chest, a face that has been runover by a tank and a voice that could break glass! there has to be balance in everything... like how east frm momo was telling us last nite after he gave ash his number so that he can bring us into barlaclava nxt time when we wanna go in
i love friendlyness we will therefore be permitted to enter a 23yr old club atmosphere and find our 21 yr old girls whom we try so hard to find... hav the limelight as we know the band and have bragging rights to ppl who nvr went in b4...
i realised that i havent got my rank sewed... guess im goin now after i finish my prata...