I forget...
POSTED AT 06:45 PM

natanna

I remembered that I wanted to do some shameless promotion, but I forgot what it was I wanted to promote. I get that way nowadays. Yeesh, you'd think I was fifty.

But anyways, since I'm here again... check out INDIEGOAT.

Em. Oh yea, I also wanted to ask... who wants to go Jazz Fest with me?

Dec 6 - 7 (Sat and Sun night) from 6.30pm to 11pm, and as my bro says "You have to go, Steve Hackett is playing!" (not that I have a clue who Steve Hackett is...) But yes. It's RM53 per night I think. Not sure if they have a double night discount.

I think I will make it count as my TGIO party, even if I celebrate it alone.

Productive.
POSTED AT 05:06 PM

natanna

Am staying on top of the wordcount. Yay.

Bought 3/4 of the Christmas presents allocated.

Changed my watch battery.

Got my car washed.

Mmm.

ooh.
POSTED AT 07:30 PM

natanna

I realise I have been neglecting this page.

Haha.

Sorry, you'll just have to brazen it out until the end of November, or pray that I finish very, very early. At the moment, I'm on a roll and reaching 33 THOUSAND words... but with 17 thousand more. Sigh!

Well... have fun.

Oh, and my car's fixed =)

And Nov 16th's over.

*sigh of relief*

whattowearwhattowear
POSTED AT 12:19 PM

reenz

ok this is totally silly.but

i have no freaking idea what to wear to class!!

uh.wear the normal tshirt and jeans or dress up nice nice?
haha.dam stupidlah.i woke up too early and since its the beginning of the sem there isnt much to read up on and i have absolutely nothing to do while waiting for the time to go to class.haha this is stupid.

not like i often dress up to class anyway.and when i do its usually cos i have way too much time.
but i currently feel fat so i dun wanna wear anything huggy huggy.

lolz.this is so lame.pity u ppl reading this hahahaha.

 

robocar
POSTED AT 11:07 PM

natanna

So this guy decided to take a nap while driving and I end up with a Robocar. Actually, my dad's been driving the Robocar. I've been using Old Faithful and remembering again how small and light and heavy it is. Conflicting? No power steering. Turning the wheels are such a pain. And I really don't remember how rickety it sounds when you go fast. Maybe I am too used to my newish car.

Preliminary view of damage:

And then after the trip to the mechanic's, Robocar appeared!

They had to pull of the bumper, but couldn't replace it as the spares hadn't arrived and my dad couldn't leave the car there because he needed it to get around.

Oh well.

Sigh.

Hey Sarah Sarah
POSTED AT 03:12 PM

sqrewloose

When I was just a little girl, I asked my mother what will I be?

Funny, the question that was floating in my mind some 4 years ago, still pops up, more often these days, as I am at the start of a bridge (derived from "We'll cross the bridge when we get there"), again.

What will I do with, what I believe is a God-given passion in science and research? Probably the only thing I can do slightly better than my other "trades" as I increasingly feel I am really just a Jack Janice of all trades, masteress of none. Do I pack and go home, to a place where I know will be more uncomfortable in terms of my profession? Or do I pursue even higher education that will equip me to be the researcher that I ought to be? But what about life? What about serving God- and swimming out to those who have yet to see and feel His love? What about mission? Will I be doing marketplace mission, or will I abandon all that I have to live among people living in literal poverty or even figurative poverty? But with the passion and interest which resides in me, will I set up a biomedical firm here in NZ, in Malaysia, or anywhere in the world? Will I work with giant pharmaceutical companies to churn out research results that will save the diseased world? 

But all that is in the light of work. What about love? What about being with someone you love? What if work (that may be God-ordained so to speak) requires you to forgo being with people you love and cherish. Will you make that call, and find yourself at the top, with no one to share it with? I used to think it's too cliched and a little silly to be thinking in those terms. Blame it on the I'm going to make it in the world mentality that has somewhat seeped into our modern culture.

What about being a woman in the society? Are we deviating from our original role as a caretaker, lovegiver of a family unit, should we pursue a work lifestyle that requires X hrs of your day? But did not the wife in Proverbs 31 make curtains and sewed linen and sold it in the market place? What is the curtain/linen equivalent for our modern day, God-fearing woman? Is it wrong to have dreams which may, in some people's views cause you to have less time for a family, and hence make you less of a mother/wife?

Will I be someone? WIll I make the mark, and be who people believe me to be? Will I be who I think I'll be? And more importantly, the question is, will I be the woman that God wants me to be- loving Him, serving Him, honoring Him in all that I do?

To be honest, I hate uncertainties- I hate grey areas. I love it when something is right or wrong. No middle ground please!

What will I be?

of many ands
POSTED AT 10:18 PM

natanna

Today I let my inner editor out of his cage after 10 days of starvation. He was weak, but served me well. My muse however was not amused and seems to be on a bit of a hiatus. I only need approximately 1,000 words to meet today's target so I'm going to try to crack the whip. Criminal minds starts in 15 minutes, though. Sigh. Priorities!

So I think this Adrian guy is from SIB and if Facebook is any indication, he's linked to Lindy. Small world! I was wondering why I felt as if I've seen him before. Unless my face recognition software is on the blink again...

And yet... I don't know. I am ambivalent and (I keep thinking) ambiguous. Though I am not sure how I can be ambiguous. It's just that the word keeps popping up in my brain. Hm. Muse trying to say something?

And the babi is on the fritz again and I hate him for it because I am left trying to placate angry people. Why can't he just answer the stupid phone?

There are too many 'ands' but I have to add... my tummy's turned bad again. Sigh!

update
POSTED AT 12:43 AM

reenz

heys

sorry for my long absence.
it was half deliberate half non intentional...
jus didnt know wat to say.altho there is so much to say and yet.

its complicated lah.

anyway this whole week was crazy.9am-11pm practice for the christmas musical.
i dun have a big part jus choreographed a slow dance and appearing as a small fry. but tiring cos ive been helping out in props.feels like form 3 and form 4 all over again when we had those combined scouts and guides camp and made all kinds of things..cooking starch..and making paper mache..

haha.memories.it was cos of traplex also that i got close to the rest of the blex altho i was pretty connected to ap fr tkd and shiang n ying from sitting the same schoolbus.

things are different now kan?
each having our own lives.and

it pains me in so many ways that our worlds may one day drift so far apart that it doesnt collide anymore
and i know in so many ways i have contributed to that too.

results are sucky.and i somehow know that its all cos of the emotional nonsense that i put myself thru the whole of last semester and yah my mind was everywhere and i wasnt reli.sigh.yeha i neglected my studies.

my cgpa dropped.all those times of pushing it up..it jus foomsssssssss.like down a slide lidat.dam sad.ugh.
and it just hit me that im gonna grad in just 7 months!how freaking fast is tat? and it will prolly just zoom by!
it'll soon be my last trimester
my last camps
my last classes
my last cf
my last prom (oh noooo! haha)
my last..well.everything.

and things have definately been getting better here..im feeling more and more at home with the cf once again
making effort to get to know juniors and hang out with them.and things are definately improving.

the irony.