September 24th, 2008

Wake Up, Sleepyhead! :P

Leaving 10 minutes earlier makes a big difference when it comes to commuting. I just realized that based on my bad experience commuting today. I just had to find a means of dispelling the negative vibe so i resorted to blogging so that humans won't directly be my poor targets of negativity.

What happened?

1. Woke-up later than usual. Instead of 6 am, i awoke at around 6:30 am despite sleeping at 10:30 pm yesterday night.

2. Took my time doing whatever needs to be done early in the morning and left home by 7:30 am instead of the usual 7:10 am.

3. Took my time walking to the bus stop. I didn't run. I even had to wait for the bus so i was pretty pleased. The bus was semi-packed, but i was a comfortable crowd...not too too crowded (that was when it was at my stop).

The flow of negativity:

1. Lady didn't make it to the designated bus stop area, which was about 10 feet away from where the bus is, so the bus driver won't let her in at first. After about 10 seconds, he finally opens his door. The lady asked the bus driver, in a rude way, why he wouldn't let her in. The bus driver told her that it's not the designated waiting area and then the lady answered back. A flurry of negativity from the two of them ensued.

2. Lady 2 at the back overheard what happened and decided to give lady 2 a scolding. She told her that instead of being rude to the driver, she should have just said "thank you" when the driver opened-up the door for her because the driver is right, she wasn't at the designated waiting area. Lady 1 was about to get off so she didn't say anything anymore (thank God).

3. A man got in and stood beside this other lady. Apparently the lady was stepping on the guy. The man said "excuse me" and the lady lashed out on him...talking...a lot. The man just moved away.

How it affected me?

I resorted to praying for peace at one point and breathing in and out deeply because there was someone who pushed me lightly said "excuse me" when i couldn't move anymore. I said "hold on" because the bus stop was not that close yet. Despite being semi-calm, i noticed a tinge of negativity oozing a little bit from me. Very very bad... I prayed mroe and just did more breathing in and outs.

That's it for now. I have to get to work... Just had to release the negativity. Hopefully, good fuzzy positive vibes will ensue for the rest of the day. Tomorrow, i shall wake-up at my usual 6 am wakie time.  Lesson learned!

Currently reading: a dash of style (after my hiatus from it as i was reading the glass castle)
Currently feeling: mash-up of different emotions (highs and lows)
Posted by greentea86 at 08:21 AM | Thoughts2share?

September 23rd, 2008

This Weekend :)

Ok, this is another blog entry that's an update of the weekend (extended as well, because i HAD to take yesterday off).

Friday:

1. Worked...the usual. I had fun making bulletin board layouts though. I had my coloring pencils, markers, and crayons handy. 2. Attended my friend, Roger's "Body Image" workshop to show some support. It was cool. Interesting topic and everyone was just so receptive/cooperative when it came to sharing stories/info and taking part in the activities.

2. Had dinner to celebrate Macky's birthday.

3. Went home, because i had a doctor's appointment on Saturday at 8:30 am. I got really tired as well so i had to bail on going to the club that night...even if i like the music from the DJ.

Saturday:

1. Went to visit the doctor. I am iron and Vitamin D deficient. This explains why i've been soo tired lately. It's soo sad. More spinach and dried plum for Jac then. *yey!*

2. Ate the $1 Ikea breakfast with mom and walked around Ikea until about 1 pm. Nice bonding and walking around time with my mom. She's also Vitamin D and iron deficient so i guess it runs in the family.

3. Went downtown to buy stuff for papermaking. I have to see if i can make paper from scrap paper for work, so i was milling around and checking out various establishments for the materials i need.

4. Met-up with Clara and hung-out for a bit.

5. Met-up with Marga and had dinner at a vegetarian restaurant. We were supposed to go to Fressen, but the server was rushing us, the prices weren't that appealing, and the server said we had to order 3-4 plates, so we upped and left. We went to Fresh instead...so far, it's the restaurant we usually go to when we eat out.

6. Went home after taking her to the temple. Got really tired so i just slept that  night.

Sunday:

1. Went to Church. Funny, the priest's sermon was about being generous. Marga and i had this conversation about being selfish yesterday so i felt like God was telling me something.

2. Did my laundry.

3. Made paper!!! Yes, it worked! *yey!* I've got pictures on Facebook. I wanted to load them up on Mulitply, but my computer was uuubbber slooow so, there goes.

4. Made a duct tape wallet. It's also on Facebook.

5. Read "Glass Castle".

6. Played Nintendo DS...addicted to Sudoku, and the other puzzle games.

7. Slept.

Monday:

1. Woke up early to get to Ryerson. Had to wait in line for about an hour to be assisted by the person at the OSAP office. I only needed 5 minutes though, so...oh well. I'm glad i had my book, music, Nintendo DS and my knitting needles so i wasn't really bored in line.

2. Went to the SCC to opt-out of the health care plan thing. That was quick so..i'm quite pleased.

3. Bought stuff at Dominion.

4. Did this long hike with Marga in the city...well...on the Discovery Walk thing. It was awesome! Some parts didn't seem like it was part of the city. We also discovered this pretty inn (Old Mill Inn, i think) that had a very very cute and nice smelling washroom. It smelled like baby powder. Hmm... Thanks to my tiny Asian bladder for this discovery. Haha The meditation and knitting session at the end of the walk was also nice.

5. Ate lunch and dinner at her place... Spinach and sandwich w/w/o veggie burger + iron tonic + fruity with spinach and some supplement shakes with lots and lots of Splenda...hahaha... it's all yummy goodie delicious filling though.

6. Got home and just cleaned-up then i showered and slept.

Whew...so..now i'm at work. Just feeling a bit ansy... Had to do a quick update. It was an awesome awesome awesome weekend so i'm pleased. Off to work now!

Currently listening to: mushy mushy songs :P
Currently reading: glass castle - jeannette walls
Currently feeling: a bit tired/happy/needs inspiration though
Posted by greentea86 at 09:50 AM | Thoughts2share?

September 13th, 2008

Ego Booster *smacks head*

Just a major ego booster: Mom just told me i'm super cute. She wants to pinch my cheeks. Great...just great. Hahahahahaha Oh well. At least i've got some love where it's due.

Don't feel like talking much. For some strange reason, i'm not a big fan of the computer. Not a big fan of the internet. Just want to hide in my little bubble right now...but i need to figure-out my schedule for the week ahead.

Blasted internet has got me hooked! Boo you! *brain fart*

Currently listening to: i love your smile - shanice
Currently reading: taking another stab wth "a dash of style"
Currently feeling: blah
Posted by greentea86 at 10:47 PM | Thoughts2share?

September 2nd, 2008

Post-summer Blues?

I'm not feeling optimally well...
Unlike my peers who are in school right now, i am faced with work for another four months.

For some uncanny reason, i just can't seem to concentrate...
I slept early yesterday night, say 2230H-ish...
In fairness, i did wake up at 0530H to attend a spin class that starts at 0700H.

I did not perform well that time either...
My body lacked the energy and vitality i always seemed to have.

Work was different as well...
Usually i can face my job head-on, but today, i lingered on far too much on trivial matters...
I couldn't seem to organize my thoughts.

What is wrong with me? 
So frustrated right now... 

Anyway, i'm not going to try doing work if my brain doesn't want to cooperate. I think i just need some time to readjust. Maybe my body IS WEAK this time around. Either way, i'll just paddle tonight, sleep it off, and work-out more tomorrow.

Think happy thoughts...think happy thoughts. Be happy... be happy.

Yesterday was awesome, nevertheless. Despite not having internet for about 2 days, i was able to survive it by keeping myself busy. I was sleeping a lot though. I thought i had the flu on Sunday, but things took a turn when i slept more on Monday, a holiday (Labour Day). I did get to spend time with mom and dad once again so i decided to treat them out to an Indian restaurant, Agra. It's funny, i felt like i was an only child at that time. That was fun... I want more palak paneer. *drool*

I also had fun, too much fun maybe...that's why i got semi-sick on Sunday and Monday morning-ish. Either way, hanging-out with friends, walking a lot, chit-chatting, and watching the sunrise (with the mosquitoes feasting on us) was quite an interresting adventure. I wouldn't mind doing it again.

I'm a bit sad...summer is officially over...

Hoohum... God, please get me out of this odd state!

Currently reading: new moon-stephanie meyer
Currently feeling: frustratedly tired/blueeeeee....
Posted by greentea86 at 05:12 PM | Thoughts2share?

August 26th, 2008

Work Ethic (GEN Y) + Anonymous is a Woman

Since i can't think of anything else to do... I was surfing the net. Here are some interesting articles i've come across:

Bridging the Generation Gap

How to Manage a Younger Generation of Workers

© Melissa Dylan

Young employees entering the workforce approach it differently than those before; unsatisfied, demonstrate less loyalty, and put personal priorities above work.

 

As illustrated in Gen-ME in the Workplace, the generation gap can lead to conflict at work. The best way to deal: understand one another.

Laziness: Don't mistake lack of enthusiasm for laziness. My generation isn't afraid to work hard: it's just that our goals have shifted. Now we seek personal fulfillment beyond career success (or, occasionally, at the cost of it). Our energy goes into become better surfers, writers, or volunteers. Often, the job we arrive at every day is simply a bill-paying-mechanism.

Adapting a new style will help to retain these employees and utilize their strengths. Offer flexible schedules and benefits that allow each employee to foster what we call our "real" lives. Just because we don't want the corner office (because that will cut into our travel plans), doesn't mean we won't be all we can be at whatever job we're in.

Lack of loyalty: We may be young, but most of us know at least one person our own age who has been laid off due to downsizing. We also watched corporate scandals like Enron leaving workers with nothing. We don't expect to keep one job our entire life, even if that were our wish. Loyalty goes both ways.

Again, flexibility will help. If an employee wants to surf in the morning and work later at night, why not let him? As long as he's still producing good work, the only effect to your company is that you'll have a happier employee less likely to job-hop any time soon.

Unrealistic Aspirations: The "Be All You Can Be" message worked. We want to be mega-rich superstars, and we want it now. Someone just out of law school may think she can become a partner in five years. She'll even say as much. And you'll probably laugh at her.

Is this really a problem? Certainly she'll be unsatisfied with the monotony of an underling, but meanwhile you have a someone yearning to succeed. Take her under your wing and be up front with her about how quickly she can climb the ladder. If she feels she'd getting the attention she deserves, she'll probably thrive.

Constant need for feedback: My generation is me, me, me. Throw us a bone and we'll quit chirping. Sorry for the mixed metaphor. You know what I mean.

Show your rising stars that you're willing to work with them, and you'll be able to one day retire in the comfortable hands of the Next Generation. Now beam me up, Scotty.

Source: http://workplaceculture.suite101.com/article.cfm/bridging_the_generation_gap

^I can totally relate to this one!!! I admit working for the sake of paying bills. I guess this is the reason why there is quarter life crisis.

Anonymous may have been a woman -- But she isn't anymore.

by Janis Cortese
11/07/1997


 


One of the favorite sayings of second wave and academic feminism is that, "Anonymous was a woman." What this means is that, when you find a saying, a piece of music, a book, or a work of art that's attributed to "Anonymous," chances are that it was done by a woman. This is for a variety of reasons.

The most obvious is that, for many years, if something were recognized as done by a woman, it would immediately be pooh-poohed and ignored. Many women, such as Sophie Germain the renowned mathematician, had to work as men in disguise. Many writers, like George Sand or James Tiptree, Jr. had to use male pseudonyms. Other women like composer Fanny Mendelssohn or the unknown lover of Auguste Rodin, had to give their hard work to the men in their lives so that they could take credit for it.

And other women deliberately hid their names, because it was easier for something to be recognized as a work of genius if it were completely disconnected from a name than if it were connected to a woman's.

Of course, this is disgusting. Anyone who creates something wonderful deserves all the credit, accolades, and profits from what they've done, male or female. Everyone deserves to enjoy the fruits of their labor. The fact that so many brilliant women have been hidden, ignored, or masculinized throughout history is appalling.

 


However, what I've found in the second wave academic feminist circles, is that this is romanticized until it's almost preferred. I've seen students in Women's Studies, more than one, deliberately sign letters to campus newspapers "Anonymous." I've seen letters and essays in essay collections signed the same way. The Guerilla Grrls, a group of young east coast artists, deliberately keep their names secret instead of proudly proclaiming their identity in such a groundbreaking group. This is roughly analogous to protesting wife-battering by letting your husband beat the crap out of you.

Why are we perpetuating this? Why is anything that calls itself feminism romanticizing this maginalization until they perpetuate it?

Isn't is just a little hypocritical to complain about how women have been erased from the ranks of history while voluntarily erasing yourself?

Isn't it just a little self-serving for 20th century women with far more resources and freedoms to starch their lip and pretend sisterhood with women in medieval times, who were denied even legal existence as adults?

Isn't it counterproductive for young girls growing up nowdays to learn that a woman protests injustice by erasing herself?

Isn't it stupid to voluntarily give up open and honest claims to power and achievement just to make some outdated point?

Isn't it self-defeating to yell our lungs out about how women have been shackled, and then step right back into the same shackles in the name of feminism?

Women have been erased, stomped, and buried for centuries. I'll be damned if I'm going to congratulate modern women who perpetuate that. I'd rather change it such that a brilliant woman artist or musician, or a keen minded writer, can sign a woman's name to her work and have it recognized a a work of genius. And until we start signing our names, it's not going to happen.

Source: http://www.3rdwwwave.com/display_article.cgi?27

^ I was just curious as to what the third wave of feminism is and i happened to stumble along a couple of really good articles. I can't really post them up here because it would take too much space, but...oh my gosh... I want to learn more! I can safely say that i'm a 3rd wave feminist. I like juggling differeng things in my life. Load me up, baby.

Currently listening to: water trickling..again
Currently reading: random articles online (sometimes i stumble on ergonomics, health, and occ. safety too)
Currently feeling: still having the impending doom feeling, but wanting to SHARE as
Posted by greentea86 at 12:50 PM | Thoughts2share?

Intense Feelings of Impending Doom

August 26, 2008 (Tuesday 1049H-ish)/intense feelings of impending doom/heart palpitating/anger/frustration/jittery-feel//

A stranger-lurking-adrenaline-pumping moment/blood coursing through my veins faster than it should/why?/i honestly do not know//

At the back of my mind, i sense betrayal/i can feel it//

Question is, who would betray me?/Why?//

Disengaged from work/on and off/here and there/the tumultuous ebbing of the emotions within/fingers extend/end it all//

OFF MY CHEST//

Placate my restless soul, please//

 

Currently listening to: some giggles at work
Currently feeling: nervous/scared/jittery/sensing doom
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August 25th, 2008

The Brave New World Comes Today?

Disclaimer: All things written here are based on the author's recollection. If i forgot any part, feel free to leave a comment to correct me. Also, the author is just basing these ideas on how she sees the world. Please don't be offended. She does not mean to hurt anybody's feelings. *I come in peace! *

I just finished reading Huxley's Brave New World a couple of days ago so my mind still lightly jogs along the thoughts/ideas/images of his work. As i was showering, the thought of how the brave new world is finally in fruition, or at least is partway there, comes to mind. Why so?

Here are the reasons why:

- Everyone belongs to everyone. <- Where i'm living at and in the community i'm a part of, people seem to be just hooking-up with one another like mad crazy. I feel like i'm Savage, getting frazzled by the quick turnover of things. Actually, i feel more like i'm watching telenovelas.

- A gramme of soma can ease away the pain. <- Oh yes, people rely on heavily on drugs. Anti-depressants, antibacterial creams, anti-whatever creams are out there to ease people of their pain because we want INSTANT GRATIFICATION. I think this is the reason why everyone belongs to everyone.

- We are preconditioned. <- When we were youngins, we were exposed to media. Media controlled us by bombarding images of how girls should be, how guys should be...what we should be like in this world. I get sick in my stomach seeing these doll commercials for little girls and these macho sporty commercials for boys. Tsk tsk.

- We are getting rid of bugs/viruses/nasty filthy stuff. <- Yeah, with all the hand sanitizers, bug sprays (which we love to lather ourselves with when we go camping), vaccines, etc. out in the market, we are proving that we are trying to get rid of all these nasty things. Then again, amazingly enough, we're losing because these critters evolve by virtue of natural selection.

- Test tube babies getting better, stronger, faster. <- With all the vitamins and scientific findings we're feeding into our offspring, and with the advent of alternative birth methods (artificial insemmination and test tube babies), we are truly getting there. McLeans Magazine, an highly verbose Canadian magazine, had this article showing pictures of athletes then versus athletes now. Whoa! The guns are getting much much bigger indeed.

- Puff puff... Make us clean. Make us smell good. We can't stand stinky smell. Make us young. <- I'm pretty guilty of this. I get turned on by fresh laundry and clean-smelling goods so...there goes. In a way, the world is highly perfumed and covered-up. We tend to lavish ourselves with oils and scents that try to mask away our HUMAN scent. There's also a lot of cosmetics and vitamins and minerals out there to make people look younger. Most humans have this insatiable yearning for the lustre of youth.

- The VRMs (Vibration R... M...) help stimulate the civilized humans and provides a relief for negative impulses. <- Seriously, we have that as well. We've got vibrators. Just go downtown and visit a naughty store and you can get one of these babies. Allergic to latex, no problem, they've got silicone as well.

- Complicated sports/games. <- We have that now as well. Playstation, Xbox, Wii...these games have more plugging and configurating involved with them. Whatever happened to the good 'ol patintero/tag/ice-water/garter/string games, huh?

- Civilized world vs. savage world. <- Just watch tourists visit the slums of third world countries. Check-out the expressions!! I can totally picture this when i was reading the book.

- We can't stand being solitary. <- That's also the reason why we have the internet. Wireless network me to the big wide world. Call me...anywhere in the world! I'm guilty of this as well...see, i'm blogging!

Despite all these similarities of how the brave new world is within our midst, i still have faith that we haven't completely lost all of our old-school savage human ways. I know that there are still artists, people who like pain, solitary confinement, and just still having faith and believing in ancient truths. Humanity, or shall i say, the people of our generation, is still yearning for truth, justice, and freedom. Mother nature is surviving and changing considerably fast in order to achieve its own homeostasis. Despite how hard we try to make things super duper comfortable, we'll just be stuck in the middle...

I really like being in the middle. No complaints. See the best of both worlds.

*I think i wrote 3 entries today...2 in one blog, and 1 in a "special" blog. Gasp :O*

Currently listening to: buses passing by...
Currently reading: a dash of style - noah lukeman
Currently feeling: pensive/writer-y
Posted by greentea86 at 09:34 PM | Thoughts2share?
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