September 17th, 2008

ONE HUGE SORRY

Posted by jr16thnote at 10:11 PM on September 17, 2008.

If you were victimized by my KASUPLADUHAN a while ago.... I'm really, very sorry!!!

Whenever I get sick, I don't want people talking to me, specially if I feel lousy. My nose is clogged up, my throat hurt, I'm coughing, and I have fever. I fell a bit better now but that's because I just drank my first dose of medicine for the day.

I'm really very sorry, you guys!!!

Also, please pray for me, kasi pag nilalagnat ako, sobra, umaabot minsan above forty, then they'd have to bring me to the hospital kasi by that time, I've probably broken one too many glass-wares or punched somebody. Di naman ako madalas magkasakit, but if I do, it's pretty extreme. Naaapektuhan brain ko. Probably why I don't want visitors around din.

PEACE!!!

No brave soul...

September 13th, 2008

Heart Broken at Guadalupe

Posted by jr16thnote at 12:28 AM on September 13, 2008.

..."lagi naman po ako nabubugbog, eh..."

..."kasi po, asset (police or NBI) yun, kaya ganun..."

..."yung test na may color black and red na wala namang ibig sabihin... dun po sa Mental..."

..."napagkasya ko po yung wan handred ng dalawang linggo..."

..."balik na lang po ako ng Iloilo..."

He looked clean. He had no bruises on him, not even a scratch. But while I was listening to him talk, I can see that there's fear in his eyes. This kid... probably 11 to 14 years old, was talking to a lady she was calling Mama.

I was on a jeep bound for Guadalupe when I became witness to this kid telling his "Mama" what his day was like. He looked like any other normal kid. Toe-nails cut, teeth are clean, clothes are clean. He LOOKED normal. But his story, for a guy who grew up sheltered his whole life... wasn't. I've heard similar stories like this. Stories of abuse, of neglect, of poverty. To hear it again was nothing short of heart wrenching. I wanted to go empty my pocket and give everything that I had to that kid. I wanted to tell him things are going to be just fine. I wanted to just pat him on the back and assure him that tomorrow is going to be different. But that money will run out... and no, things are bound to get worse, and if tomorrow does come for him, it's not going to be any different from what he always faces day in and out.

The fear in his eyes told me that his kid was for real. He wasn't trying to ask for pity from his Mama. He was just telling her the events that happened that day in a "matter-of-factly" manner. Also, the kid didn't seem like he was the kind that fought back. He was actually frail-looking, but healthy. Every now and then, he smiles ever so sweetly, but then he goes back to telling the horrible things that happened to him.

At this point, I wanted to do something. I wanted to say something. I wanted to give the kid something... but something is holding me back. The first thing that held me back was... I didn't want to get involved. I have problems of my own that if I added another one to my roster, I might just drive myself insane. The next thing is that I am actually ashamed of what other people might think of me... a total stranger... helping a kid out. A lot of stuff entered my mind, I was already wasting time. I wanted to do something... "DO SOMETHING, DUWAG!!!"

But I didn't budge... I didn't move... I turned away, and just prayed, first asked God for forgiveness for being such a coward, and then for the kid in front of me. It was really hard because tears are already welling from my eyes... but in that moment of cowardice, it was all that I can do and offer to that kid. I prayed that somehow, if it's not going to be me to reach out to him, that God would send someone else to reach him. To do the things I should've.

Mama: Ano kaya kakainin natin mamayang hapunan?

Kid: Hmmm... hapunan...

Mama: Uy, maraming chocolates sa bahay

Kid: (big smile on his face) YES!!! Chocolate!!!

Mama: MA! PARA!!!

......

2 spilled it!!!

September 12th, 2008

Happinss is...

Posted by jr16thnote at 05:57 PM on September 12, 2008.

...a free Champ!!!

Lord!!! Tenchu for the Dedels!!! AMEN!!!

No brave soul...

September 10th, 2008

Drool...

Posted by jr16thnote at 01:35 AM on September 10, 2008.

Not until this evening, this was very possible... She was supposed to be mine this Wednesday...

I'm not asking for too much... just this...

WHY? OH WHY? WAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!

"Unti unting mararating... kalangitan at bitwin...
Unti unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning..."

No brave soul...

September 1st, 2008

NOW OPEN!!!

Posted by jr16thnote at 10:39 PM on September 1, 2008.

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phone: 897 8644
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No brave soul...

August 25th, 2008

Missed Passion

Posted by jr16thnote at 04:11 PM on August 25, 2008.

It hurts...

Missing the stage life...

No brave soul...

August 6th, 2008

Si Tatay

Posted by jr16thnote at 01:11 PM on August 6, 2008.

Bernieat70.jpg Invitation ni Tatay picture by jr16thnote

Parang 'di ako makapaniwala... mag-si-seventy na si Tatay. Parang a couple of years ago lang, mukhang nasa early 40's lang si Tatay. Pero nung nag-retiro s'ya, bigla syang tumanda.

Napa-isip nga ako, kaninang madaling araw... pa'no kaya pag nawala na si Tatay... or kahit si Nanay? Parang pinitpit 'yong puso ko, nalungkot ako ng matindi, napaiyak ako. 'Di ko na sila madalas nakikita ngayon, pano pa kaya 'yong for the rest of your mortal life?

Sometime last week, may nakitang medical exam result si Tabits (bunso kong kapatid) sa kotse ni Tatay. Nabasa n'ya daw, may cancer cells na nakita kay Tatay, pero kailangan pa daw ulit ni Tatay magpatingin ulit ng darating na Sabado noon. Kaso, 'di naman pumunta si Tatay. Kaya... hanggang ngayon, 'di namin alam kung ano ba talaga 'yong initial na finding na yun. No'ng nagka-usap naman kami ng huli, kailangan daw s'yang operahan sa testicles n'ya. If I heard right, kailangan na daw alisin pareho.

Nung nalaman ko 'tong mga bagay na 'to, I wasn't really bothered, kasi may Diyos ako, eh. Pero ang weird, 'no? Kasi nang ginawa ko 'tong invitation ni Tatay, saka ko na-realize na matanda na nga pala si Tatay, eventually, kukunin na s'ya ng Panginoon sa amin, saka ako biglang napa-isip... pati si Nanay naisip ko din.

Madalas kong naririnig sa mga funerals sabihin ito... nothing prepares us for death. Di natin alam kung kelan s'ya dadating, kahit yung mga may taning na ang buhay, napapa-aga or na-de-delay. Ang tanging preparation lang na alam ko, 'yong paghahanda ng sarili ko para do'n sa destinasyon ko sakali nga'ng bigla akong mamatay. Hindi 'yong lote na pag-lalagyan ko, ano ba? Yung DOON na tutuluyan ko for eternity. Do'n ako papunta. May kasiguruhan ako. Kaso, nakakalungkot pa din kung mawala na nga sila Nanay at Tatay. 'Di ko alam sa totoo lang kung anong mangyayari sa akin, pero ipapasa-Diyos ko na lang.

Siguro, dapat hinahanda ko na din sarili ko kung dumating na nga 'yong panahon na 'yon. Pero anong klaseng preparation naman ang gagawin ko? Sa ngayon, hindi ko pa alam, pero ma-pi-figure out ko din 'to. Promise yan!!!