March 8th, 2008

Firestarter?

this is a story in which you build up on the excesses of the previous social class and then take them down immediately afterwards because you realize that you weren't really building up on anything at all, that you would just rather sit up all night and stay in bed, looking through picture books that remind you of how hopeful you used to be, the way you ate tender juicy hotdogs with a half-smile on your face and a squint in your eyes as the flash went off, because back then nobody heard of a camera body that didn't have a flash unit connected to it - it was a given, almost a necessity - and this one moment, you're looking at an innocent little photograph of you and some neighborhood girl locked hand in hand and you're thinking what a punch to the groin that was, me outdone by some snot nosed little kid.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 11:12 AM in dreams | do go on

February 6th, 2008

The Anonymity Clause

One of the coolest things about Tabulas is that you make friends by accident. Which is how real life should be like. The community is so vibrant and active (it used to be more vibrant and active way back - now it's like a trickle to the gilgamesh it used to be) that totally random visitors check out your site, your deepest, darkest secrets - and it's alright.

There is solace in anonymity.

Especially when you need to be alone.

I recently made a decision - I will no longer get drunk in the presence of other people. I will, instead, drink on my own. For a variety of reasons, but chief of these are the following:

  • it's so much more fun wallowing in self-pity when there's nobody to witness the said event. Not that self-pity is good in any way, but indulgence is a once-in-a-blue-moon virtue.
  • it keeps my tactlessness (read: overboard frankness) and my stupidity in check.

The only exception to this rule is when I am out drinking with people I don't know. Again, there is solace in anonymity, and plenty of anonymous people a group of friends do not make, thus the anonymity clause holds.

I have begun on the said endeavor yesterday. Here's a shot to its continued success. 

Posted by kilawinguwak at 12:01 AM in dreams | 10 hoodwinked

February 5th, 2008

Eraserheads Tripping Time!

Big dipper north of nowhere
 Outside the room inside my mind
 Look forward to tomorrow
 But can I leave yesterday behind?

 How it feels so strange
 To have grown and changed
 Now it's not the same

 'Coz time, slips and slide into another place
 And try as we might to understand each other
 Doesn't really matter where you are
 It always seems so very far
 'coz you're lightyears away
 You're lightyears away from me

 Little dipper south of somewhere
 It looks much closer than it really is
 I held it in my hands
 But it seemed forever out of reach

 Far as the eye can see
 Nothing is meant to be
 Doesn't mean much to me

 But oh, if I only had a rocket ship to fly
 I'd be right there in a minute
 But it doesn't really matter where you are
 However near is still so far
 when you're lightyears away
 You're lightyears away from me

 Far as the eye can see
 Nothing is meant to be
 Doesn't mean much to me

 'Coz time slips and slides into another place
 And try as we might to understand each other
 Doesn't really matter where you are
 It always seems so very far
 'coz you're lightyears away
 You're lightyears away from me

 Look forward to tomorrow
 But can I leave yesterday behind?
Posted by kilawinguwak at 12:17 AM in dreams | do go on

January 23rd, 2008

Meme From Mike


YOU.
01. Name:
02. Birthday:
03. Place of residence:
04. What makes you happy:
05. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
06. Do you read my blog:
07. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
08. An interesting fact about you:
09. Are you in love or do you have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyrics:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:
14. Do farts make you laugh:

RECOMMEND.
01. A film:
02. A book:
03. A band, a song and an album:

ME.
01. One thing you like about me:
02. Two things you like about yourself:
03. Put this in your blog so I can tell you what I think of you.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 01:49 PM in dreams | do go on
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