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march 17-18. linden suites. 4jrn2 block party. masaya na naman. may awards pa. elaine and reagan very "helpful" housemates. bathtub pics.  the OC rosey...., tequila shots with rose,kalai,fufu and shar. brian aburrido, morning with rose and our little "food" secrets...etc.etc..

march 24.baccalaureate mass . sobrang saya. hapon pa lang ang ingay-ingay na namin nila angela.  like,what's new? eh lagi naman kaming maingay. ang hirap mag-senti. hindi naman magical   talaga yung feeling pero sa totoo lang,overwhelming. everything in its perfect place. ganun. dahil sa career seminar at sa baccalaureate mass at kay dr.christina cabral-castro (or is it the other way around?, basta siya yung  magaling mag-pep talk), na-boost ang thomasian spirit ko. na parang dahil sa mga sinabi nila, parang napakadali tuloy humanap  ng trabaho after nito.  ganda ng fireworks.  masaya yung Rite of Exit sa Arch of the Century. Masaya kahit maalinsangan at malagkit na yung  feeling sa sobrang init. At sa sobrang dami ng tao. Eh bakit naman pa ko magrereklamo, di ba? Huling beses na yun. Putek. Ang sarap sumigaw. Tapos,masaya lang yung vibe. The fireworks shot up in the sky, and i was with the people I spent the past four years with.  It's the whole idea of that LAST time together with them that both scares and excites me at the same time. I'm not afraid of changes  but I  don't think I have prepared myself for this parting. Not that I wasn't ready for this, but things have ended abruptly, while I still feel like havin' another shot at most stuffs.

I will miss everyone but as usual, I'm too lazy to enumerate more important people. my original plan was to give out letters  (yeah, very traditional), but after a couple of strenuous days, i decided to scratch that out but HOPEFULLY, if the energy gets to me eventually, I MIGHT be able to send my USTe friends emails or  whatevers, at least to show a little gratitude for spending treasured time with me. graduation the day after today, that is, on the 29th,to be more specific. I don't know what happens next but I'm praying for miracles. Jobhunting,still ongoing. Faint luck at trying to nail down the job I really want but I'm still hoping,it's too early to tell anyway.Nothing SHOULD/COULD get in the way of my dreams. but if all else fails, after 3 months, I would be joining that industry. after all, i need the dinero to sustain that lifestyle I want for myself.

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super fun night out with the 4jrn2 biatches last night. it's so weird how we all never had the initiative to organize get-togethers before. the feeling of having to spill out recollections of sorts (if you'd call it that) was liberating  since what you could share with them could either make or break you, considering that it was the first (and hopefully,not the last) time we ever shared such an intimate moment.

now,i, with rose as co-organizer, am "organizing" a graduation party for 4JRN2. tentatively on the 17th. venue: still looking,but it would probably be a house party, i guess. food assignments,still to be given out. am very happy and looking forward to that. party everyone. so if you're from 4journ2 and you feel like suggesting anything, feel free to click that comment box and let your voice be heard. alright? sana walang kj. sana walang maging panira katulad ng isang professor na _ _ _ _ _ _ ang pangalan. MEJO bitter na lang ako.

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PANAWAGAN: this is for aprilann who left a comment in my previous entry. i'm sorry but i'm not really sure if you're the april i have in mind so please  feel free to let me know who you are because i have no idea what your email add is. thank you.. 

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matatanggap ko pa talaga kung sila sir tolits, ma'am litcrit o kung sino pang may kredibilidad na prof ang nagbigay sa akin ng una at huli kong tumataginting na 3 na grade sa buong college life ko eh. kaso, hindi sila yun. may isa kasing peklay na nagpapanggap na may "high standards", kaya ayan, lahat kami, hindi satisfied sa mga grades namin sa INVESTIGATIVE JOURN. wala akong masabi. hay. siya lang pala makakasira sa pangarap ko na hindi magkaroon ng 3 sa buong buhay ko. jusko. alam ko hindi ako magaling sa class niyo pero alam ko din naman na i don't deserve that grade. ok lang sana kung 2.75 o ano eh,pero 3?! jusko. hello. tama na. huli na 'to. i just want to vent it all out. grrrr.

pathetic talaga.

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Kriztel Marie Lorbes... madalas hindi ko binibigyan ng pansin ang mga araw-araw nating pagsasama.. para sa kin, isang ordinaryong araw lang yun na kasama kita.. pero naisip ko na hindi lahat ng akala ay tama.. naisip ko na sa laht ng bagay magkasama tayo, sa lahat ng saya at lungkot magkasama tayo. hindi lahat ng tao ay mayrrong natatanging kagandahan, hindi lahat ng tao katulad mo. hindi ko man nasasabi sa yo pero ikaw ang bumuo ng college life ko, lahat ng saya ko kasama ka, lahat ng lungkot ko, madalas sa yo ko lang nasasabi. ngayon, naisip ko na ang araw-araw nating pagsasama ay hindi lamang ordinaryong pagkikita dahil sa bawat araw na yun, mas nakikilala ko ang tunay na personality ko at ikaw ang isa sa patuloy na bumubuo ng ugali at mga kakayahan ko...


there's always an excuse for sentiments and other memoirs especially now that the LAST ACADEMIC YEAR for all of us is about to end. this message was from someone whom i actually shared the last four years of my college life with. i found it very touching and very very sweet, something that person is not usually perceived to be. i love arjay,(for now,until he has not been possessed by the growling tiger spirit). haha. ngayon ko lang sasabihin yan..


i will be an out-of-school PERSON (di na talaga youth) soon. out-of-school,literally. oh god. this is one of the saddest feelings in the world. ang bilis kasi ng four years eh. ang bilis ng oras talaga kapag n ag-eenjoy ka. sana yung year na 'to eh next year na lang, para mas mahaba ko pa makasama mga college friends ko. nakaka-miss na agad, kahit wala pa talaga. wala na. eto na yung katotohanan eh , wala na akong  "MAY SCHOOL PA" na idadahilan o i-l-look forward. wala ng "bahala na" days kasi, ngayon, magiging bawal na (temporarily) ang ganong attitude. wala na yung confidence sa thought na may school pa na sasalo kapag nagloko ka sa "summer job" mo. o makakabawi ka sa susunod na exam, na makakalabas ka sa CLASSROOM any time you want. wala ng chismisan habang nagdi-discuss ang ibang walang kwentang prof o kahit na may kwenta. wala ng "initiation"/ bastusan, walang SUDDEN quiapo/168 (o kahit anong  mall) trips.bbye na sa cely's, sa sizzling, sa jollibee, sa paypark na gumaganda pa lang, sa lovelite, sa katabi ng lovelite, sa iba pa..wala nading kung anu-ano pa...hay. stop dis muna.tsaka na  ang full GO USTE ENTRY.

nakakadala naman kasi ang sentimyento ni arjay eh.