Unscrupulous July 25, 2008 blotted aT 11:36 PM maryl i didnt get the usual warm fuzzy feeling when i saw him today. and i am terribly bothered. why? oh why?  am i sure a neurotic bitch? why cant i just be who i truly am with the masks and the pasaway na hiya. ick. i hate it so much i want to pass out! anyway, im dead tired. i havent been sleeping the right number of hours lately. hopefully after all these, i can be back to my old ways. all books and no sleep makes ryl a very very irritated girl. ps. unscrupulous is spelled thus. Currently listening to: You're so gay drink here.

Ugly July 23, 2008 blotted aT 09:23 PM maryl I really dont know where they buy those ugly shoes. Imagine a pink and white, pointed sneakers-looking shoe with mini heels. my god!  They're so ugly you'd want to cut of their feet just so you'll never see them again. i am so annoyed. eek. Currently listening to: I Kissed a Girl and I Liked It drink here.

A few months late July 12, 2008 blotted aT 11:23 PM maryl Kasasabi ko lamang kahapon na hindi ko na nakikita ang kanyang mga alaala. Hindi ko na nakikita ang bughaw nyang polo o ang kanyang pulang Adventure. Tila hindi siya naging parte ng buhay ko. Tila lahat ng mga nangyari ay panaginip lamang. Ngunit paano magiging panaginip ang mga sandaling iyon? Tandang tanda ko pa ang kanyang mga binigkas sa salita ang kanyang mga madalang na ngiti. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan si shakespeare at ang mga tula na kanyang binigyang buhay. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan ang CPAR, ang Metrobank at ang illustration board. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan ang mga katagang 'general rule' at 'exception to the rule'. Hindi ko malilimutan ang limang pirasong yellow paper. Hinding hindi ako nagkakamali na naging parte siya ng buhay ko, ng buhay namin. Sir, maraming salamat kung nasan ka man.  ** 'Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds or bends with the remover to remove. oh no. it is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken.' Currently watching: Chuck drink here.

blueberry apollos July 5, 2008 blotted aT 08:38 PM maryl i am wearing my primas right now and let me tell you they are buttery soft and uber comfortable. its just like having your friends over for some cake and coffee. i really really really adore the feeling. anyway, speaking of friends, i got to spend time with them over blueberry apollos and sheer laughter. haha. grinning and fooling around with them is something ive been craving lately. its one of those things that i havent been doing since ive been having a crazy senior year and a whole lot of disappointment (cough cough)   drink here.

brushes July 3, 2008 blotted aT 07:57 PM maryl the three words that hurt the most are not: i hate you i despise you or even who are you? they are 'ok na che.' the feeling of being brushed off is worse than the feeling of anonymity. at least the person you care about would never have a chance of hurting you. you go about your life never knowing that they would never come to care as much as you do. you will never know the feeling of being ignored and forgotten because in the very beginning, you are no one. just a face in the crowd, a name in the endless list. anyway, what am i chopped liver? or maybe the last resort? drink here.

concrete July 1, 2008 blotted aT 10:00 PM maryl ive been writting incessantly lately and it feels quite refreshing. but then would you feel refreshed if you busted your phone on concrete? gawds please help me. drink here.

hell, i really dont care June 30, 2008 blotted aT 09:58 PM maryl this morbid one sided romance i am having with mr.forever has really got to end. i am feeling more pathetic than usual. and well screw you for not noticing what you've been missing. ps. to everyone who thinks i am a pushover id prefer it if you just back off and let me go my merry way. you're all way too annoying and honestly i've had enough. drink here.