i talked to mom last night, and as we were chatting about the usual stuff.. she said to me:

 

mom: "haha.. ikaw ha, dami dami mo nang pera, pa-shopping2x ka nalang palagi..."

me: "uhh... hindi ah. hehehe." *lies*

mom: "sus... nakita ko noh.. TOPMAN... PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE..."

me: "uhh... hehehe?" *walang lusot*

 

...

 

ayun. hahaha. taena tawa nalang ako. wala akong masabi eh. kulang nalang sabihin din nya CELIO.. SPRINGFIELD.. hahaha. ah shet.

SO HOW DID MY MOM EXACTLY KNEW WHERE I WAS BUYING STUFF?

 

Two THEORIES:

THEORY 1: She somehow could look into my ATM and could check whenever I used it to buy directly from my favorite shops... O_O and she could probably see how much i'm spending.. ah shet.

THEORY 2: My cousin LETTE told her that the shops that i usually shop at are TOPMAN and PEOPLE are PEOPLE..  You see, i think i told lette where i usually shop when she asked me the last time she was here.. and so i think MOM assumed that i have been going on shopping sprees since i've gotten extra cash from working..

(which isn't really far from the truth..thus my paranoia that she could see what i was buying..hehe..)

 

The reason why I think THEORY 2 is a likely suspect, is because I HAVEN'T BOUGHT ANYTHING FROM TOPMAN during the past month.. or MONTHS for that matter.. last thing i bought from that shop was a necktie, which was like.. August or September pa..

Same thing goes for PEOPLE are PEOPLE.. though i frequent the shop, i don't really buy a lot there. Last thing i bought something there using my ATM was the yellow shirt and the skinny jeans i bought when i was with Kat.. which was... JULY pa.

Oh, and the more i think about it, the more i think that it was my cousin lette. Medyo pumorma kasi ako nung nagkita kami last time.

Well, it wasn't really super porma.. i just wore my magical black jacket which transforms me into brad pitt or something. hahaha. i'm just kidding. anyway.. my relatives found it "porma" and so i think that when they returned to davao.. something like this happened:

 

mom: o lette, nagkita kayo ni chin? kamusta siya?

lette: hahaha tita! pormang porma! naka jacket pa and all! manila boy na manila boy! tee hee!

mom: o talaga? bakit ano ba yung suot nya?

lette: oo! sabi nga niya, sa TOPMAN daw siya nagsshopping! blah blah.. tee hee!

mom: ah...

 

Ayun.. haha. but of course, this is just my paranoia and overactive imagination doing its thing.. so don't really take it seriously. hehehe.

hehe. nonsense blog na naman. hahaha. wala lang. namiss ko lang magblog ng nonsense rants about sa buhay ko. hehehe.

komikon na sa saturday! yebahhh!! hehe!

I care a great deal about my friends. believe it or not. I may be a bitch sometimes (okay.. maybe alot)the point is, well, there is no point, I just like being a bitch. It's fun, people should try it. Yes, I backstab people. I do it a lot. everyday, actually... and now? more than ever.

I can't help it. I need to backstab to survive. that is what's happening now, isn't it? We must survive... from everything!

Survival of the fittest.

Yeah... but i'm not fit. I just cheat, so I'm still surviving.

 

but deep down, behind this evil facade... i'm very emotional[obviously].

 

point 1:

I've been called names before. A lot. when I was still in highschool, it used to bother me. Made me cry and all that blahness. But I hear it so much it doesn't affect me anymore. It's either i'm too used to it and I take it as a joke or why deny it? So it's true, so what?

But just because i don't react to names or whatever, there are still somethings that when said, could be pretty offending and it doesn't hurt me, it pisses me off... why?

 

point 2:

because people are supposed to know me by now. and when I do something, I don't do it to attract attention (because I may be ksp, I don't call attention that would actually get me labeled).

People know my every fault and flaw. I don't hide anything but when they say something that's completely not me and force it, it really REALLY PISSES ME OFF.

insensitive much?

 

point 3:

Yes. Yes, you are. No... maybe it's not your fault because you are like that. it's mine, it's ours from expecting too much from you. I said that you weren't as important to me as you ARE to that person, but maybe I don't feel it because we were dealing with different issues. Maybe not issues, but different scenarios.

common denominator: YOU=INSENSITVE, YOU=RUDE

you don't watch what you say, or the way you act; neither do you care about the effect that your actions ensue. you're so dense that you fail to see what you're missing and what you're losing and I don't think you care about that either.

 

point 4:

you only see other people's faults and flaws and you unrelently tell the whole world about it. How about you? perfect? oh yes, it may seem that way, you hide them so well. I guess that must be why (....?.....) we plastics and liars.

 

not everything is our fault. try looking at yourself and see what's wrong with you. you are not as perfect as you think you are.

TRY LISTENING TO WHAT OTHERS ARE TRYING TO SAY.

TRY FEELING WHAT OTHERS FEEL.

 

every action has some profound reason behind it and you're only seeing what you want to see to justify your own speculations. not everything is according to your point of view.

 

a word of advice: try caring. for real not just for show. we know the difference. don't smile unless there's actually something to smile at.

 

 

source: realizations from a friend, of a friend

 

note: blog from a long time ago (MAY still be applicable, ONLY IF IT HAPPENS AGAIN)

note 2: don't know why I decided to post this. maybe because it's done and over with?

Currently listening to: It's not over - secondhand serenade
Currently feeling: honestly? sad.

RUNNING AWAY

by: Midnight Hour

 

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Minsan, nakakatawang isipin, na kung anu yung pinakaayaw mong bagay sa mundo, dun pa pala yung babagsakan mo. Tapos, kng anu man yung kinaroroonan mo noon, mga bagay na gusto mo noon, bigla ka na lang magsasawa dun, at iiwan mo para dun sa bagay na dati ay sobrang kinaaasaran mo.

how ironic life is.

hahaha

 

feeling dazed. haha. due to a certain special realization. secret.

I'm pretty sure we won't look like ourselves five to ten years from now.

Growing up not looking like any of my parents, (or my close relatives for that matter) it amuses me to see other people who i see physical similarities with my own. The fact that i don't look anything like my own brother is the reason, I believe that I wanted to have an identical twin in my younger years.

And yes, I did have a friend who looked just like me.. but that's a different story altogether. haha.

...

For me, it's amusing to see myself in someone older than me, and think that "i think i'll grow up looking just like that".. or "i'd like to be as cool as that guy!", etc etc..

One of those people who I'd love to become would be Sir Nick, coz he's always been one of my favorite professors in UST. Smart, witty and just hilarious. 

So here's what happened a while ago: i was checking sir nick's friendster and..

it seems that he has uploaded quite a lot of pics in his profile from the last time i checked. and... one particular picture really made me laugh.. 

particularly because the photo looked strangely familiar. Coz i had a feeling i had the EXACT same picture on my own friendster account.

 

so here's me: (with neil.. or the neil that USED to look like THAT neil..haha)

(he looks so so much different before than now, huh?)

 

...

 

here's sir nick's pic: (with someone i don't know)

well okay.. the distance is wrong, so is our positions.. (i'm supposed to be sir nick! haha) but the view of the beato building looks passable. hehe. i wonder if we'll look something like that 20 years from now. hehe.

anyway.. moving on.

 

here's me: 17 years ago

 

and here's my closest LOOKING relative:

he's around 12 years younger than me.. and i wonder too if he'll have the same features as mine. or we'll be both become.. well.. handsome conyo bisaya people with the brains and talent to match.. hahaha. i'm just kidding.

errh--humm.. anyway.. as i was saying.. He had the same hair as mine when he was younger.. but you can actually see the similarities between us: i was THAT thin back then.. (still am until now..haha) i was THAT short too.. (hope he'll grow to a decent height when he reaches puberty though.. and i'd like to take this time to say i love you DAD for all those growth pills you've made me swallow everyday until i reached 5'7..haha)

and.. i guess i was THAT cute too.. hahahaha... ha.. hah..

 

*gets shot*

 

...

 

Okay enough about this. i've got floor plans to pass tomorrow. hahah.

And so, this wraps up another random, weird, nonsense blog from me. hope you guys were amused though. hehe. Hope to see you looking like yourself 20 years from now! hehe.

woo! nag-grocery kami ng tatay ko! wahaha! pag grocery, spoiled ako! wahaha! taena, 2 lng kami, umabot ng 9k! wahhaa! owell. foodies.. weee!

food.

yea, aside from coffee, good food makes me happy! wahaha!

sabi nung isa jan, naglilihi daw ako! kasi lagi akong may mga food cravings! hehe. pero lalang.

food is my flavor of the sem. hahahaha! hmm 2-in-1 pla. food and cooking is my flavor of the sem. hehe

fortunately, nagagaya ko naman! wahha!

weee. lapit na bday ni mam! yehey! haha food party nanaman! haha! magiimbento nanaman kami ng kapatid ko. stress-reliever. wee!

grbe. daming may birthday ngyng nov.. wahaha ubos pera! wahaha..

Nov people:

9 - Lara

11 - Judy (Happy Birthday Judywoody!!!)

15 - Mama! weeeeee party party!! + alumni party sa Holy..

16 - Lala!! whaahha! kainan na!

17 - Dom

18 - Jen2

[uhm uhm.. mga valentines baby! wahahhaha joke]

wla ako mgwa. segway lang to s plate. owell. gawa na! draft mode! weee!!)

Currently listening to: thinking about you
Currently reading: NBC (wahahahha)
Currently watching: downloading supernatural
Currently feeling: bouncy

it's been a while since i've written anything quite substantial here. let's face it, it's thesis time and everybody would rather work than rant or discuss about random things. hehe. but being the random rant-er that i am..

 

here's my RANDOM RANTS:

 

1. "Why fish for a tilapia, when there's obviously a lapu-lapu in the sea?".. or better yet, "Why go fishing, when you could hunt for meat instead?" hehe.

okay, i'm not really sure what i'm talking about here. hahaha. my point is, there are OTHER OPTIONS out there. i mean, it's nice to hold on to somebody special, but what's the point if there's like.. ZERO chances of actually getting anything in return?

okay.. okay.. i'm not really in the position to talk, but whatever. this is my blog and i'll rant whatever i'll rant here. so sue me! haha.

so who am i to talk about love? i've never even been dumped before..

maybe not, but i can say that i HAVE held on to someone hoping that the world would turn upside down and the person would actually LIKE me.. but it was just pathetic.

and yes, to some extent, my DEMONIC POWERS did at least TILT the world.. but it didn't really go overboard.

and now? well.. i'm so over it. haha.

coz that so passé..  hahaha.

 

2. POSERS - Shet.. may mga tao pala talaga na POSERS sa internet.. yknow.. people claiming to be someone hot.. when in reality they just stole some other person's pic.. taena nakakainis! hahaha! i can't believe it!

(and to think minessage ko pa ampotek! hahaha)

oh well.. you can't deny the power of a good profile pic. hahaha. pero taena, mamatay na lahat ng posers sa mundo! taena dapat kasi kung pangit ka, inuupgrade mo nalang itsura mo (or be reallllyyyy nice with reaaallyyy great personality) rather than steal someone else's picture.. right? kasi ganun din, sikat ka nga or maraming nagmemessage sayo dahil hot ka sa profile pic mo, eh taena hindi naman talaga yun yung hitsura mo in real life. haha.

3. PROSPECTS - Let's go to katipunan area! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. XD

...

 

okay.. this rant is going nowhere. hahaha. go thesis! yeah! hehe.

kng may lalakas pa sa kutob ko, eto na un.

history repeats itself.

AGAIN?!?

ouch.