Bleak evening Posted at 12:08 PM Do you know the feeling of being a garbage can? I do. And I don't know how I had survived for once, and twice and thrice. For countless times to be exact. But you can never defeat me. I will be willing to stand. More than willing. That, I am certain.
I'm more than tired. But the amount of my willingness to fight outweighs my burdens.
So I shall survive.
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Posted at 01:23 PM in General
Sometimes there are just memories that you want to keep forever. Like crazy loud singing at the KD formal. Like running in and changing into nonformal clothes in 30 seconds. Like lying in the leaves, looking up at the moon between the trees. |
Guilt Posted at 10:37 PM
Too much happiness isn’t good at all. Why? Because it makes me more selfish. It makes me more confident of things that are fleeting. It makes me forget people, “important people matter-of-factly.” Has it crossed your mind, that sometimes you don’t want to be so happy anymore, so to stop yourself from forgetting people in your life? Sometimes, I’d rather be lonely and sad than to be happy and so alive and full of company. I’d rather be lonely and sad, and be able to keep in touch with people I love, than be happy in the company of others and still the next day when the fun is over, I would sit in front of the computer and write about my emptiness. Who doesn’t want to be happy? Sometimes, I get tempted and I would love to raise my hand, if being asked with such question. Happiness is a reminder that we are (at the end of the day) simply alone.
I was taken aback by the thoughts I have made. Scary. They are so scary. |
Update Posted at 05:30 PM in Read All About It I see none of us have been in the mood to write. Oh please wake me up from this slumber -- I'm pretending I have a life! uhhhh party next door |
MARIJUANA? MY QUESTION IS, WHY? Posted at 07:39 PM
Tell me what are you? Because I don’t know. Why me? For the life of me I have been carrying loads of stuff But still you seemed so happy seeing me suffer Yes, I deserve this because You wanted me to stay strong And to always call Your name And yes, it’s my pleasure. I don’t have any slightest idea Marijuana will become his company I never thought Yes, my very own brother Has become one of those who finds pleasure In smoking And my brother. Why? I do not know Tell me who knows how to read everyone’s mind Tell me how fortunetelling works? And I shall try every impossible Way to stop him from drowning himself into the pit of darkness Maybe, I do not understand But why? MY QUESTION IS WHY?
Look at how fast the wheel spins. Yesterday’s a bliss, now’s a blast. Life can be a smooth-sailing road but it can also be a nauseating ride. Who says life is fair? When all the good things happened to the bad people and all the bad things happened to the good people? How ironic? Such a wonderful twist. Despite all my complaints, I still believe in Him. Because no one, nothing is bigger and powerful than Him. They said, “THE WORLD IS ROUND, MAGIC DEAR, SO WORRY NOT, YOU CAN HAVE YOUR WAY UP THERE.” Merlyn |
Love is Posted at 08:15 AM when you feel you're the happiest person in the world.
All I want to think is NOW, NOW AND NOW and NOW. From the deepest part of me, I feel happy. Yes. NO. Oh yes. I am in love
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Still nostalgic Posted at 01:12 AM
Can't do anything, can't write, thoughts are dishevelled. I miss home. But I have no choice but to be used to this. To be immuned and be numb. Home. |
I'm back Posted at 01:27 AM
home
my cousins and my big bro
me and my brother
My father
Me and my bro
Merry Christmas! MY sis and my bro.
I don't want to go
10 days wasn't enough.....but at least....finally I've come to realize that reality is better than my dreams. I am glad I have a family, though not perfect but totally happy.
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