normeee

Parang gusto kong magtabulas ulet ah.

normeee

Nakaka-miss mag-blog sa Tabulas. Binabalikan ko yung mga pinost ko don dati tapos ang kulet lang kasi ang tagal ko na din palang nagsusulat don. Halos araw-araw may bagong update. Ang saya kasing makihalubilo dun sa mga Tabulas friendships ko (tabships in short --ika nga ni Emkaye), yung magpapalitan kami ng kuru-kuro tungkol sa sinulat ko o sa sinulat nila. Kahit walang kwentang bagay, papatulan basta makapag-comment lang. Nakakaaliw lang. Yun yung isa sa masarap balikan bukod sa pagsusulat ng entries.

Kaya lang nung naglaon, tinamad na din akong mag-blog. Siguro dahil wala na yung mga dating ka-ututang dila ko doon. Yung iba naging seryosong blogger/writer na at naglipatan ng blogsites. Yung iba naman nawalan na ng panahon dahil may mga kanya-kanya nang lablayp, karir at pamilya. Ayon, unti-unti, namatay ang blogsite ko dahil na rin sa katamaran kong magsulat dulot ng pagka-ulila ko sa aking mga tabships. Dahil kung tutuusin, yung ibang tabships ko buhay na buhay pa rin sa sayber ispeys. Ramdam ko pa din ang presensya nila sa Friendster, Facebook, Wordpress, Multiply, at kung anu-ano pang mga networking websites na mayroon na ring espasyo para sa blogging. Pero hindi na rin tulad ng dati eh. Di ko alam kung anong nagbago. Marahil iba na kasi ang takbo ng blogging styles/purposes namin kaya minsan di na rin ako makasabay. O di naman kaya'y, di na rin kami singdalas mag-interact sa comments. Sa Tabulas kasi, may ibang klaseng bond o kinship o baka ako lang yata ang nagsasabi no'n?

Gusto ko ulit mag-blog katulad ng dati. Kung paano ako magsulat noon sa Tabulas--yung may bugso ng puso. Palagay ko kasi'y nangalawang na ako sa pagba-blog (pero hindi rin naman po talaga ako kagalingan sa pagsusulat). Noon kasi musmos pang mga bagay ang aming bina-blog na 'pag binasa mo'y parang ang gaan-gaan ng mga buhay namin (kahit na may mga panahon na nilalabas namin ang mga sama ng loob at problema sa mga posts). Pero hindi rin eh, kasi ang totoo, mabibigat man minsan ang nilalaman ng mga blogs namin, nagiging magaan dahil sa mga tabships na nakikibasa at nagre-react sa mga ito.

Yon. Yon ang nami-miss ko sa Tabulas. Yon ang masarap balik-balikan, kasama ng mga kuru-kuro na isinulat ko batay sa mga nadiskubre, natutunan, nakilala, naalala, naramdaman, namalas sa buhay ko.

Kaya sa inyo....

655321, antipatheia, ayli_ymom, beybigurl, budj, carrotcake, cres, danricca_27, darspangled, embarr, enchantress_, engrafted, escapethehurt, estranged_parts, guitarchic, h0bb3s, hellobebe, iggy_koprintoh, imperiusrex, inhale_exhale, inoj, iskorpyon, karl_bio, kartunista, kauban, kinkytelogy, littlemissfab, meri, miss_cazzie, Nikolai, nikosdgreat, pissinthewind, PumpkinSeed, RAWRchel, silverlining, smallfeet, someone_like_mae, soulfly, spoiledgeek, starryw1ngs, tabulas, tedzki, the_tourist, tinacious, witty, wynette, xxxxxx, yengski, yzrah 666666, _isabella, _trinatrina, abbygaile, advent_drops, afrodshock, agatha, aira_aira_aira, akire, akis12kainam, alanjay, alleycat03, anj, baby_gel, babyjen, BJ, bluelass, bluemango, caieh, ch3rry, chezikiks, chipstar, chocnutbaby, DingangBato, enah, exgirlfriend, extasiegeextreme, gcel, giulianne, glenn0927, godchaser, guangzhou_chick, hellokatkat, hidinginsidemyse, hunnycs, i2enova, icha_starfish, jackinthebox, janradovan, jazzy, joanna_te, kren, liquidhigh, lululaleilu, margaritapalaboy, MaZza_M, miaka_3182000, mishanboulevard, Moja, Nikoy, notme, novocaine, phrygian, prayers, prinsesashe, punkybrewster, sara_mrvica, seventyseven, shayne, stoic_moonstone, sukuchi, takeitwithasmile, TatsuOyama, teethpaste, ten10, The_Arsenal, the_incubaby, thecowsaid_moo, thinking_aloud, toothpick, trapiksaRECTO, tubthumping, tumz, xXx_mEiGh_xXx, yumi_omura, zantiwanti

At sa mga iba pang tabships na nakasalamuha ko sa tanang kong nagsusulat sa Tabulas, salamat sa paglagay nyo ng kulay sa aking buhay bilang isang blogger.

normeee

2008 is really an interesting year. I won't go through the specifics. But what I proved earlier this year... reality DOES bite. And it bit me hard. I thought, at last, things are happening just as it should. Guess I expected too much. Funny how just a few weeks back, we were celebrating. Now, we just want to move far, far away to stop the hurt.

Things like these bother little kids, but not grown-ups like me. Yet I find myself bothered by it, regardless. And I have to be strong for those who need strength at this time. Thank God I have Jesus to draw strength from.

I'm just really tired. Running into the same sad story again. I have moved on from this a long time ago. Why do I find myself in the same rut?

Right now, I just need peace. We need peace. It's the new year and we want to start anew. Leave baggages that keep us from truly enjoying the love around us and hold us back from growing completely - in all aspects.

As for you, seems like you found happiness finally. Good for you.

I just have a final request. And this once I hope you listen...

Please leave us while there's still respect left.

normeee

Just a quick greeting to y'all...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! :p

normeee

i can't even manage this blog anymore. i'm actually thinking of closing it down and hop to another blog spot or not at all. but then again, those archived posts, the comments, the friends i've added... what a terrible thing to say? it's as if i'm not even grateful of all those moments that i've shared w/ tabulas people, reading their posts, commenting on it and complementing their site designs (was it aug 2004 that i began blogging here?). basically, some of my friends grew up and moved to more serious blogging business and has set up traffic-worthy sites, while me -- the not-so-serious-blogger, stayed here and let my blog gather dust. and like an abandoned credit card, no activity since. it's as if the very life of this blogsite died. no zest, no sense. just another wasted space in the dot-com world. i'm not blaming them-friends who have outgrown/matured in their blogging. it's actually me. i just didn't blog anymore. and i am asking myself why. time? maybe. subjects? well, could be. yet as i reflect more, it actually is the passion to pen -- or in this case, type my thoughts onto a blank blog space. i really am not that good of a writer. i suck, really. however, on those times that i am really passionate about blogging how i feel or what i believe in (whatever that may be), even I can't believe that I was the one who composed that. well, i guess life exhausts me too much that it steals me of my passion. oh passion where art thou? w/o thee i am worthless.

great, i've blabbered again. let me chase after my lost passion. you'll know when i got it back when you see another post here. but just to assure you though, i'm keeping tabulas.