*** some girls are born lucky ***

Internet is down!

Why is the internet down when i actually have the time to surf and actually feel like surfing? =( boo

i think i have a new level of patience now.. because of you.. it has reached this all new level.. like unimaginable level.. never thought i could be this patient.. or stubborn.. depends on how you look at it.. hmm.. i think stubborn is the word.. refuses to ask.. insists to be given.. yup.. i think its called stubborn...... so.. yeah.. we'll see who gives in first.. game on!

just had my hair cut!!!! *wwHEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* i still look the same lah.. just that my hair has more shape now.. much softer too.. as Shawn put it... and apparently i can leave it like this until chinese new year... don't think i have that many looks anyway..

feel like posting a picture.. but internet is down and i think it will take for-eh-vah to upload..

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girl... don't be sad... i've always hated him.. but you were happy with him once before... just move on.. keep your chin up... don't let him hurt you anymore.. don't let him bully you into thinking that it was all your fault.. please don't blame yourself.. don't let his lies affect you... i hope our lil chat helped... we haven't spoken to each other in what... 8 years?? we were never close in the first place.. but i'm glad i made the first move.. i felt sorry for you.. sorry that he took another victim... i don't know what's wrong with him.. why he needs to hurt so many people.. but i know what goes around comes around... don't worry okay... be strong, girl... *hugsss

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ok fine. i give in. i give up. you win. i can't keep it in anymore.

arghhhhh~~

oh baby, this love ain't gon' be perfect
and just how good its gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
long as everything's all right between us
before we go to sleep

Written by pamela_michelle at 10:50 PM | wat say you?

The Gastric Monster Strikes Back

So i had dinner at around 9-ish last night... ate SO much! felt very full and bloated after dinner.. fell asleep on my bed and when mum woke me up i felt quite horrible.. did not sleep with the air con on.. fan was only at speed 1! kept waking up through the night.. next morning... i threw up -_- went to the doctor's and she said it was either early food poisoning or gastric.. but based on my history.. she said it was gastric.. doctor's orders: no coffee, no tea, no oily food, no spicy food.. only eat bland food like soupy stuff and porridge =((((((

anyway, was feeling quite sick at work today and my boss asked me to go home cos she didn't like seeing my sick face in the office -_- got so much work to do! how to go home wor..... anyway i survived.. left the office at 4+ for our market visit.. slept in the car the entire journey there... then sometime through our first dinner, he looked straight at me and asked with a very serious face, "Pam, are you ok?" all i could do was to nod yes and say "yea".. then he raised his eyebrows as if to say "u sure?" then he nodded.. that moment reminded me of the time i got really bad gastric in the office but i was so busy i couldn't even go to the doctors' next door.. then he looked for gastric medicine for me.. couldn't find it and asked another colleague.. which created abit of a stir.. felt kinda awkward at the receiving end of their concerns.. some ppl may think he's nothing but a really intelligent, moody guy.. but i still think he has a really good heart deep, deep down..... anyway back to the present... in actual fact i felt like crap... only felt better during our 2nd dinner.. i think it was the food =) we had steamboat for our 2nd dinner.. journey home was much better as i listened to them talk about their clubbing days.. saying it as though it was many, many years ago... the song "if i were a boy" came on and i was singing along.. then he turned to me and said "do you like this song? don't you think its very spiteful and bitter?" errrr.... ok what.. was my reply.. hmmmm.....

received a phone call just now.. asking me for my opinion on something.. and although i was named as a point of reference.. i really couldn't help much... is it because i don't care anymore? or is it because i never really knew it in the first place? i tried to think.. but i guess the words just couldn't come out.. i think i'll just drop them an email later.. saying what i think.. so they won't think that i'm a heartless, hopeless person...

skipped an event tonight.. 2 infact! skipped out on one last week too.. i think i just can't do late weeknights anymore.. =( i'm getting old!!! anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy.. i shall go to bed now.. tired of waiting already lah... don't call me lahh.. it's ok.. whateverrrrrr.. >.<

Written by pamela_michelle at 12:14 AM | wat say you?

Another weekend gone...

ok ok. i know i'm supposed to be finishing up my proposal. just let me get a few things outta my head k? PROMISE i'll do as much as i can before work tomorrow =D

umm.. i realised i haven't bought any new clothes recently!!! good stuff.. but i'm already spending next month's salary -_- finally got my benetint + gloss that i've had my eye on for ages! ever since my whole bottle of benetint leaked into my make up case =( so sayang ok.. whole bottle gone.. it was a present frm my BFF =) i am in extreme need of a haircut.. i feel like a sheepdog with overgrown fur.. deciding if i should go to shawn cutler or a cut above.. hmmmmmmm.. i miss shopping in bangsar!!!!!!!! trudging up and down those stairs.. boutique after boutique... might only be able to do that next year! end of the year = no money.. everybody's birthday! its birthday celebrations every week! i have plans on top of plans.. sometimes i wish i could be in two places at once! sorry for always FFK-ing!! i also really feel like joining fitness first again.. have not been going for basketball and badminton at all! i need cardio! i could always just wake up early and run a few rounds round the park outside.. but.. hmmmm.. lazy lah! takut i kena kidnap also =P as it is, i'm not getting enough sleep... still wanna wake up early meh..

have been super busy at work.. ALL my accounts are active!!! see lah.. this is what happens when client's realise that they have additional budgets at the end of the year.. but just so happens that one of my major clients are launching a huge campaign... so yeah... workworkwork!! gonna be really busy till next year too.. don't know when it'll stop... i seem to have campaigns back to back and some running simultaneously! o_o *faint* i am still unwilling to forgo my 'play' time for work.. which ends up in me having to sacrifice my sleep like tonight..... i should stay back in the office more often.. oklah.. that's this weeks plan! errmm but i already have after work plans for tuesday and friday =P

i've also got this annoying cough and flu... sometimes my throat gets super itchy and i can't stop coughing... happened to me while i was watching a movie last week.. omg....... the girl in front actually turned around to stare at me -_- maybe she thought i was dying.. oh oh!! i wore my super damn nice pink adidas jacket to work on friday and everyone said it was nice!!!!! i got it at the adidas sample sales a few weeks back.. my colleague randomly threw it in my direction while i was rummaging through the racks n racks of clothes.. it was love at first sight.. =) my art director commented that it was damn nice ok! that says a lot! cos his taste is very atas.. so yeah.. it is definitely one of my best buys! it was super cheap too!

oklah i'm sleepy already.. -_- see lah.. my proposal still not done yet.. gonna get it nicely from my boss tomorrow..

anyway.. i had a good weekend =) enough happy thoughts to get me through tomorrow... went to poppy on saturday and it really wasn't that horrible lah... obviously cannot compare to velvet.. but i liked the music! very danceable =) i think we had a really good table too.. so that helped.. was not crushed by sweaty bodies.. some certain very happy drunk person made it more fun too =P and NO that does not mean you should be drunk all the time ok!!! i had strongbow on saturday too! and margaritas! and whisky! yum yum.. i is turning alco... its in my genes i tell you! had a strange conversation with an aquaintance on saturday/sunday morning... i wonder why she said those things... was it because of something or someone? is it that obvious? but she sounded like she was talking about herself rather than about me... hmmmmm... i think i might ask her more next time.. ok whatever.. i will not let it bother me..

okgoodnightbuhbye! hope everyone has a great week! i know i will! =)

Written by pamela_michelle at 02:03 AM | wat say you?

After A While

Found this in one of my archives from more than a year ago.. it was posted as a private post then.. am feeling quite emo at the moment.. missing my melbourne friends.. missing the happy times.. missing what i can't have right now..

i should sleep.. gotta wake up damn early for a morning meeting tomorrow..

goodnight!

i leave you with this..

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

Written by pamela_michelle at 02:28 AM | wat say you?

Make a Wish*

so what happens when you turn 24? =)

you go away for the weekend with a few very good friends and your dearest. they then surprise you with the cutest birthday cake ever! not before they all gang up on you and secretly plan everything without you knowing something was going on. as the candles burn, you close your eyes and wish for everyone present to be happy. you open your eyes and take in all the smiling faces around you, and think that you're the luckiest girl...

you get to spend your birthday 2000m above sea level, taking in the cool air and just enjoying his company. you close your eyes and wish for him to be happy. you open your eyes and let the candles burn for just a while longer, because blowing them out will mean that time is passing and the moment will end...

you go about your day at work, when your colleagues surprise you with a cake while singing happy birthday after lunch. as the candles burn, you close your eyes and wish for everyone around you to be happy. you open your eyes and take in all the smiling faces around you, and think that you're the luckiest girl...

you come back home carrying all the presents you received while you were at work, only to find more surprises waiting at home. you put the blue roses down and look at the tatty teddy in the bag. you look at the only word written on the note and instantly know who the gift is from. you have dinner with your family at home and as the candles burn on the funny cake from your mum, you close your eyes and wish for everyone around you to be happy. you open your eyes and take in all the smiling faces around you, and think that you're the luckiest girl...

you go out clubbing and get happily drunk with your closest and dearest friends. even your boss comes for the celebration! the people at the next table sing happy birthday for their friend and your friends sing along too. as your friend holds up a flame from a lighter, you close your eyes and wish for everyone around you to be happy. you open your eyes and take in all the smiling faces around you, and think that you're the luckiest girl... you drink and dance without a care in the world, only realising that you should have behaved a little more the next morning -_- you thank the heavens that your dearest is still with you and you didn't scare him away with all your happy drunk actions.

your girlfriend buys you a manicure and pedicure which you absolutely love and can't help showing off at any chance you get. you complain that you're hungry and she lets you sit down in the shop and choose your nail art while she goes out to get you food. you then finish everything without offering her some. she says you're horrible for doing that but you know she still loves you :p both of you then go for dinner and get happy on margaritas. she then gets the waiters to sing you a birhday song, complete with a guitarist and a chocolate cake with ice cream. you buy her dinner and plan for after dinner activities. in the end, you can't help but choose to spend time with your dearest instead =)

you meet your college friends for dinner after having drinks with your colleagues and arrive quite happy. you talk a bit louder than usual and harass the waiter when he says they've run out of lasagna. you all eat and chat and write cards for the other 2 birthday boys. its a 3 in 1 celebration! your friends sing happy birthday at the top of their lungs attracting attention from the other restaurant patrons but you all continue singing anyway. you close your eyes and wish for everyone around you to be happy. you open your eyes and take in all the smiling faces around you, and think that you're the luckiest girl... you receive a present that flew all the way from Heathrow airport and its exactly what you wanted for your birthday =) you've been pestering this one person to buy it for you but he didn't and by the looks of it, he won't ever will. so its true that surprises come in different forms and when you least expect it. its really exactly what you wanted. and i guess it doesn't matter it didn't come from him.

this really has been one of the most memorable birthdays ever. maybe i do like surprises after all. i love how everyone makes a bit more effort to meet up during birthdays. its not like how its a normal dinner date that usually gets cancelled or postphoned indefinitely. joint celebrations are fun too. its been a while since i received so many presents. so many perfumes too!! i can have a different scent every day of the week! i love all the handwritten cards... so hard to come by nowadays. i love every one of you who celebrated my birthday with me. appreciate all the effort and time put in. i really do. here's wishing all the happiness in the world for all of you =)

Written by pamela_michelle at 03:39 AM | wat say you?