tHiS iS mY BloG

My ThOuGhTS

mY iNsIgHtS

My oWn RaNtS aNd RaMbLiNgs

If YoU don'T LikE wHat YoU ArE ReAdiNg, itS NoT mY pRoBlEm To DeAl WiTh

YoU cAn juSt gO oUt oF mY PagE...

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R's:

           > respect for self

           > respect for others

           > responsibility for all your actions

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a seconds time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones,deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

my bday is getting near and i dunno why i am feeling lost again or maybe this is just because of boredom..i am really so complicated..i am doing a lot of things; have 2 jobs and doesn't even getting enough rest, i can't even go to the gym for my work out or to the spa for a massage, even get some mani-pedi or my very much needed haircut and treatment...my schedule was so full yet still i am getting bored with what i am doing, what's wrong with me?! maybe because days from now clinic days will be over and after that i will be stuck again with my less challenging work...i need a challenging job! i can't give up this office thingie for the job opp at the clinic since my bond is not yet over and practically speaking, i can't afford to lose more than half of what i am getting if i'll choose the clinic. I love being there, practicing my passion and what i really wanted to do, i love the interaction with my colleagues and giving care to patients. honestly, even it's not well compensated considering the demands of work ( imagine 4 patients at the same time), i don't really care.. i think i can adjust but then again, i can't go out here this soon...on the second thought, i think i am not lost..i am just anticipating boredom and being bum after being uber busy coz i totally hate that; doing nothing, being unproductive of some sort though there's actually a lot of work here at the office...see i am so complicated... on the lighter note, i am still so very much in-love with my beybi,happy with my family and friends..i couldn't ask for more...it's just that one thing i am fussy about but i know in time everything will fall into its right places, my prayers will be granted and goals will be reached...

call me crazy,insane,lunatic or whatnot but he really blows my mind! i am madly in love with him and he's driving me crazy! he fills my thoughts every single day and i am not exaggerating here.i dunno, it really hit me...badly and deeply!and i definitely love the feeling!i'm just hoping we'll stay this in love for the rest of our lives..well, i know we will...i don't wanna be so positive about it but with what i can see in him,in me..in us..it's all possible.

again, call me crazy but just the first few days that we started talking and get to know each other i felt and knew it...IT WAS HIM...it's him that i wanted to share my dreams with and spend the rest of my life...it's him that i will love for the rest of my days...it's him that i wanna grow old with...i dunno! i just felt it and i am confident with that thought...with that feeling...he's the answer to my prayers and i am not even expecting it at that point of time when he arrived..he really is the one that God gave to me to share his gift of love...i am just soooo THANKFUL! super thankful!i am just sooo blessed!with him, everything starts to fall into it's right places...he's such a blessing!and i just can't help to be positive...with God's grace it will be...everything will work out...He's with us...it will not always be sunny and there will be though times but it will be just a part of our journey together.good or bad i am with him and he's with me always... i love you joseph! i sooo love you!!!and i will stay this way for the rest of my life.i know i will...love you sweetie!

and yah, i am crazy!

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my current song for him...i just can't get over this song as much as i can't get over him!

The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

i never really imagine myself being this in love again...i know it's a great feeling but i've been head over heels once then bruised and shattered the next day...been there, done that!i'm gonna tell you, loved different men, different scenario, all kinds of drama...name it!i've been an expert in life and love because of them..not too many though, i can just count them with my two hands but each guy has a unique (some out of the world) story...then i told to myself i will never ever give my all again, that i will love myself more and will always be on guard with my feelings...but now everything is like the first time again...head over heels-can't get enough of him-crazy for you-truly and madly in love with the most adorable person i've known...well i am still loving myself now but i am loving my man like i never did it before...now has more meaning, more mature, genuine and more to hold on to yet still unconditional...i am loving the feeling and enjoying every second of it...see, the last time i saw him was when i'm in 6th grade and now we are not even physically together yet i am this smitten..we both are...and sometimes i get to think our first convo and the weeks after that and the months that have passed and then why suddenly i am like this...and i can't think of any answer but the love has grown from the day that i get to know him and definitely that is sooo true! and now i am just so thankful that even we are apart, it seems like we get to see each other every day just by merely talking several times a day...communication is really a must to make everything work...this will turn out just fine...we are on the right timing, on the right track...worst had happened to both of us in the past and now i know that this is all worth it, really worth it...he is worth keeping...and everything, just everything will fall into its right place in time...for now, i will just enjoy the feeling, keep it growing and treasure those longing days until we finally get to hold each other's hands...