January 8th, 2008

A fight for my beliefs

I missed two 1st-day classes today just to add a class to my schedule. The first class I missed just to fall in line for adjustment, and the second class I missed just to wait for my number to be called.

It took me two hours to adjust.

The next thing I had to do was reprint a form that would show me the amount that I will have to pay additionally for the class I just added. The line for this was also long.

It took me thirty minutes to reprint my form.

My classmate sent me a text message saying that they were backing out on the subject that I adjusted for. Now, if a class doesn't get at least fifteen students after the adjustment period ends (which is today), it will get dissolved.

Adjustment period has just ended, and I checked the number of students in my class: eight.

That was just about it. I had wasted those two classes in order to fight for something futile. I wondered why my would-be classmates decided to back out on adjusting: maybe they couldn't bear the long wait, maybe they were afraid of the class being dissolved anyway (which is akin to being afraid to vote for a candidate because you think he/she will lose anyway), or maybe they want to put off retaking a failed subject.

In any case, I don't blame them. I fought for that class I had petitioned, and lost it due to unfavorable circumstances.

Would I consider my day a failure?

No. The class may have been dissolved due to insufficient students, but I know that what I did was right. I fought for what I believed in: that I could retake this subject this term and pass it, and that others are willing to take it with me.

ADDENDUM: It turned out that the class wasn't dissolved at all.
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January 7th, 2008

the meaning of death

nobody wants to die. but death is part of life. death is not final. it never is. nothing is wasted in this universe. matter is broken down into atoms, which are used to create new matter.

souls never die. they can only possess new life. an endless cycle of birth and rebirth.

oblivion does not exist. there is only new life, sleeping, waiting for another chance again.
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June 11th, 2007

Leaving

Perhaps this is the ultimate freedom -- the freedom to leave.

But I never left.
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