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Posted by chipesterkhan at 03:02 PM on November 29, 2008 in Personal.

Posted by chipesterkhan at 03:02 PM on November 29, 2008 in Personal.

Posted by chipesterkhan at 03:00 PM on November 29, 2008 in Personal.

Posted by chipesterkhan at 02:55 PM on November 29, 2008 in Personal.

Posted by chipesterkhan at 02:47 PM on November 29, 2008 in Personal.
it's just the price i can't agree with... poor people always find something to gripe about hahaha)
and also put gas in the car everyday...
so...
all i have to do is report to school every 2 weeks for 4 months per sem. but, i can opt to finish a sem in a month or 2.
Plus since i've had my grades assessed i only have to take a couple of subjects to finish it and get my bachelor's in business administration
Finally!
I mean i don't wanna shoot down an associate's degree but it hasn't really helped me that much... i mean yeah it's a great thing to have it. In fact, kids... those in AMA or ABE or other schools that offer Associates Degrees... treat it as a stepping stone but get that Bachelor's as soon as possible.
And to make it more worth it... pay for your own tuition...
heh...
I remember my first college years...
me and Domz enrolled in RTRMF (a medical school in Tacloban) as Medical Technology students... we did it for a year but eventually i got sick and tired or the hassle of going to school and interacting with my snobbish classmates... to my dad's chagrin... i quit.
Then I went to Cebu to study in USC for Marine Biology... did that for a year but after a brief encounter with a teeny tiny dog shark (about a foot in length...) i realized maybe this wasn't for me... hehehe i almost had a bad case of the bends when i panicked and ascended way too fast from being submerged at 30 feet... if not for my instructor holding fast to my ankle i would've burst my lungs. Almost cost me my license as a diver hahaha but all's well that ends well...
After that i returned to Tacloban and re entered RTRMF as a nursing student with Domz again and we even managed to become President and Vice President of the class... yours truly being President of course hehehe didn't last that long either...
By then we realized i had a serious problem...
I used to love school so much... it's just that I was way too anti social... brought upon by my burgeoning love for music and being affected by the lifestyle as an artist (sheesh)
I had serious bouts of depression which after being checked by a psychiatrist stemmed from my disappointment at not being able to enter Philippine Science High School (long story... let's just say I studied a whole year for that only to get bumped off by another student who was way more intelligent then I was relegating me to 4th position and they were only getting 3 students from Tacloban) and ending up in the Seminary instead.
My Anti Social tendencies stemmed from my youthful arrogance knowing i had an i.q. of 120 and my natural skills in language, math and science. plus the fact that i was an excellent swimmer at 6 and martial artist at 8 years old.
all these things helped to swell my head to rather enormous proportions. I believed i needed no one's help. (at that time i was also earning my own money aside from my allowance)
god... looking back at all those years that i was like that... it makes me cringe....
sometimes i still revert to that person but only as a defense mechanism... to turn off my feelings...
so going back...
my Dad was so dismayed at my lack of concentration in school and gave me an ultimatum...
i decided to silently flip him the finger and said i didn't want to go to school anymore.
in short i quit.
but a few months later i found an ad in a newspaper... it was ICS (International Correspondence School).
I pooled my money and signed up for Fine Arts Course... I was doing well enough until that school turned out to be short lived... disappointed again I withdrew from the world. It took me a year before I finally ventured out.
This time I enrolled in AMA CLC a new school at that time and since they were offering night classes i thought cool! I can work and study at the same time. and that's what i did.
I was working as a D.J. in ABS-CBN, worked part time in our Pharmacy and also worked as an FSR at ACA (got promoted as a Trainer and as soon as i graduated became manager 2 or MT2) to help me pay my way through college that and the odd jobs i took playing with my band and selling my paintings.
after 3 years i finally got my (Associate's in Computer Science Development and Programming) certificate and thought I was the Shit!
When I came to Manila... I had my eyes roughly opened to the real world.
It took a lot of Pride swallowing and real hard work. I was already living on my own first in Paco and then I got a condo in Sucat (WaterFun) because i thought it'd be a fun place what with all the slides and pools. I thought I'd made it. I had a great job, a great place, a beautiful girl ahhh the bachelor's life.
Harsh events yanked me back to what was real... i went through a real hard time and eventually had to crawl back to my Dad and work for him again.
2 years worked wonders to my shattered pride and ego... i was back to my old self albeit with less loftier thoughts of grandeur.
I had matured a bit.
Now here I am craving for a bachelor's degree and I'm earning enough to pay for my shit.
It'll be my gift to myself and to my dear old suffering dad...
So please shush muna until I graduate cause I'm gonna surprise him... maybe see the old man jump for joy. I owe the old man that much for bearing with his dreamer of a son.
IF YOU READ THIS UP TO THIS PART, THANKS FOR BEARING WITH THE ARROGANT NATURE IN WHICH I WROTE THIS. it was needed.
Posted by chipesterkhan at 04:51 PM on November 28, 2008 in Personal.

Posted by chipesterkhan at 07:52 PM on November 27, 2008 in Personal.
they say the greatest thing an artist creates stems from extreme emotions
pain
happiness
etcetera and all that bullshit
yeah so i've created a few songs that to my bandmates are masterpieces
does that make me an addict to the pain?
cause all i've ever really done are songs of love and the absence of it in my life
i can no longer feel anything
well not really anything but i find it harder and harder to express what i really feel to other people or to i don't know
i'm just rambling on and on again
i guess everytime i'm depressed is the best time for me to pick up my guitar and write a song
everything's just so messed up
i don't want to end up with a 12 gauge under my nose
good thing i don't have a gun

Posted by chipesterkhan at 07:28 PM on November 27, 2008 in Personal.
why is it that when i fuck up that's the only time i ever really fucking blog?
sheesh
i'm so fucking depressed
all i've been doing is stay in my room
weights
read
write
sleep
eat
smoke
drink (coke)
damnit
i hate my life

Posted by chipesterkhan at 06:53 PM on November 27, 2008 in Personal.
that one with my bro's ex's friend?
din't work out the way i would've wanted it to either so...
hermit mode again
bummer....