Bangun, bangun, bangun,
That's our morning call.
Cursing under our breath,
We drag our ass from our comfy bed.
Without hitting the morning shower,
Everyone line up and sing "Negeraku".
Doing PT-Sepuluh is not that fun anymore,
Well, at least we get to lose some weight.
Breakfast, lunch, or dinner,
It's doesn't matter,
Cause the food taste so bad,
It will make you gag.
Under the blazing hot sun,
We march like living corpses.
Tiring but not retiring,
For the battle still is on,
Going on without relenting,
Till the final day of Nasional Service - 11th of March!

a poem i actually wrote during NS. found it stashed under mountain of old junkies. wtf right. time flies by so fast.  it seems like only yesterday when I packed my stuff to head over to kem bumimas, sibu on january. and came back 10 kilos lighter after three months.

now, let me bore you with all my recaps...

in 2006...

• i lost 10 kilos during NS.
• i learnt driving with a driving instructor from hell,
• but i got my P license without kopi lui attempt.
  
• i worked part-time in a pizza outlet.
• and volunteered for RMWF 2006.
  
• i was rejected for any scholarships applications, and end up in swinburne sarawak.
• gained 5 kilos back wtf.

i guess that's all. very un-interesting but let's hope for a better new year!

cheers. 

1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the 'next' button.
6. Don't lie.

Opening credits: Splender - Yeah, Whatever
Waking up: Franz Ferdinand - Shopping For Blood (wtf?!)
First day of High School: Dashboard Confessional - Don't Wait
Falling in love: Alterbridge - In Loving Memory
Fight song: Muse - Muscle Museum
Breaking up: Carpenters - What The World Needs Now Is Love
Prom: Village People - YMCA
Life: Tsunami Bomb - The Simple Truth
Mental breakdown: Seal - Kiss From A Rose
Driving: Rascal Flatts - Fast Cars And Freedom
Flashback: Joshua Radin - Star Mile
Getting back together: Bob Marley feat Fugees - Everything is Gonna Be Alright (wahahahahaahhaha)
Wedding: Shania Twain - Party for Two (how appropriate)
Birth of child: Mozart - Flight of the Bumble Bee (wtf!!!!???)
Final battle: Five for Fighting - 100 Years
Death Scene: Meatloaf - Love hurts
Funeral Song: Paul Westerberg - Let The Bad Times Roll
End credits: Something Corporate - I Woke Up In A Car (heehee cute!!!)

just like that, another year is close to expiring.

inevitably, this time every year, i become a girl and actually start feeling things.

i reflect on the past year, the ups and downs, what was not and what could've been, what was and what if it was not.

the year brought some drastic changes, both intrinsically and extrinsically.

some changes were planned for and welcome, some came and smacked me right in the face. and i finally stepped out of my comfort zone and took a risk.

some goals were achieved, while some drifted by the wayside once again (fuck, i still fat).

a lot of things happened throughout the year, packed with revelations of others and myself, and yet it seems that it’s all a blur. how can so much crap fly by so damn fast? this whole time concept is one weird thing.

i guess i should also thank all the people in my life. for tolerating me and my foolishness, for allowing me to play a role in you pathetic, sad...um, i mean in your wonderful, happy existence. may our paths always be intertwined.

here's hoping for a better new year.

Currently listening to: Fountains of Wayne - All Kinds of Time

Hope everyone out there in fantasy land have a great time! It has been a great month. Mamak sessions. Dancing and singing under the moonlight.

So...I sure have been neglecting this poor little blog recently.

You know, a few days ago I swore that my next post would be something lighthearted and funny, but, alas, I have some things on my chest that are applying a little too much pressure on my life right now.

The future, for anyone, is a very uncertain thing. It is so abstract-so non-real. Just like life, i guess. We all yearn for something, and maybe some of us get it while the rest of us aren't as fortunate. But as time moves on, we get to a point in our lives where maybe what we have isn't have isn't what we want. what we want we cannot obtain.

Still, all in all I'm doing well. Life is good. Don't think I'm clinically depressed or something because I worry about my future. I'm still living in the present and making the most of it. =D

The glass is half full. But the water is plain. 

sometimes i feel like an asshole... and you're all pieces of shits!

-wilson, 23/11/2006