Live :)

sold the psp for 6k. core unit, a 2Gb mem stick and the black pouch/sock. goodbye old friend. you were there until the end. thanks for the memories

wala namang bago. as of now i feel confused. a mixture of feelings. sad, happy, gloomy etc.. sa work wala akong ginagawa everyday. puwede na ako maging palaboys. nung saturday nagpunta akong office, had a greate time with donna. we had lunch, lounged at the office, she took shots sa labas, then i went home ahead... lam na kung bakit. then i went to metropolitan hospital for a checkup. nostalgic naman yung feeling. parang bumalik yung pakiramdam nung bata pa ako nung nagpapagamot kami. it's as if my consciousness was getting trapped into a smaller box of white walls, old windows, small cubes... crying babies and their moms...

nakakabaliw. tapos paglabas sa masangkay parang andami kong nakitang mga kakilala ko noon. it's an inescapable fate. you'll meet up with old chinese teachers, some bullies from your class and etc kahit anong iwas na gawin mo. it felt like half a home and a former prison. and you just want to laugh and raise a finger at them. wala lang. lol

and then nitong sunday. the usual badminton session and beef pares. here are some pix btw:

the beef pares. tastes and looks like sopas. not bad. 43 pesos. comes with rice and a bottle of mountain dew. 

harassed badminton mates

 

the power of emo.. 

that's all for now i guess. walang pasok today. nothing to do.. 

eto nanaman walang magawa. my module got dissolved. so now i'm just seating here pondering about life.. and yet i would still have some time left. wala na magawa lol! panoorin ko na lang ba groupmates ko na magcode? or palaboys na lang ako sa ibang group? lol... pakiramdam ko nabubulok na ako dito hahaha dahil walang magawa. i might go back to some of my old hobbies. dami ko na kasing oras ever since that fateful day. ayun. sige mamaya ko na tuloy to. lol

pasok ako today, sabado, dahil gusto ko lang pumasok hehehe. abah libre aircon tapos free unlimited wifi, at dami pa chix sa labas hehehe. yun nga lang ikaw sagot sa pamasahe at pagkain. pero ayos lang yun.. pansin ko nga andami ko nang gastos every week. sarap kasi bumili ng mga nice new shirts and jeans. wala naman sigurong masama dun. gusto ko na rin palitan yung lumang set ko ng mga damit. ayan 6:40am pa lang naman. sa ngayon internet lang muna. tapos kain ng quaker. konting stretching at seatups para lumiit ang tiyan hehe. hay life.. yan lang balak ko tuwing sabado until the fateful day comes....

i woke up this morning feeling bad, i wanted to go out and do something like hitting the court. kaya lang bukas ng sunday pa pala ang badminton. naisip kong mag-sm na lang, siguro bumili ulit ng bagong damit, ang aking bagong kinaaadikan.. pero naalala ko na lagi ko lang hinihiram yung rubber shoes ng kapatid ko pag nagbabadminton kami. even my dad borrows it. imagine the smell hahaha. pinaghalong pawis at kung ano pa... kaya naisipan ko na lang bumili ng bagong badminton shoes sunod na lang yung dalawang bagong chucks myahahaha... sana may pera pa para dun tenen ^_^U

well... here it is, tenen:

 

 
hehe... you're right.. hindi sila badminton shoes, hindi ko matiis e xD wala kasi silang magandang badminton shoes dun... kaya tennis shoes ang binili ko ) 

 

i felt like i accomplished a lot for today. fulfilling kumbaga. here's what i've done so far:

1. call up the metrobank credit card dude (since nacancel ko na.. weird lang may statement pa dumating)

2. finished and sent the DD for my module sa debugtool

3.  helped my friend reached an urgent quest (psp stuff)

4. did well in an interview

5. completed and passed my leave form for the half day today 

6. ... etc.

i can finally feel it. this little sense of freedom and accomplishment. i'll be leaving soon. it feels both sad and great. i wanna live my life now. as in now.

it's time  

attendants: me, helen, mau, donna, ate may and parents

kakaibang experience. nostalgic na hindi. panay food trip at picture taking. stop over dito at doon, tapos napuntahan by foot yung mga nadadaanan ko lang dati pag nasa kotse. eto ngayon ko lang natry iorder kahit na ang tagal nang meron haha at seryosong napakasarap niya (donna's recommendation na mas ok ihiwalay ang sabaw at mas ok talaga siya) :

 

helen, harmy, i, and mau

it's time. one way or the other, i had to get tired of being sad, hurt and being down. this stupid misery

had become more of a bore. soon it'll all be over.

there's a whole world of possibilities and better opportunities out there.

i'll find her soon.

and then i'll finally be able to say for sure, it's really time.

this new year proves to be scary at some point,

uncertain

and mysterious.

but i'm definitely much stronger and braver now, i'm very thankful for what had happened.

i've been put through the fire.

now i'm ready.

enough already!

it's time! >:D